Along Came a Spider

something he’d said earlier.
    “No. It wasn’t intentional at the time. I
would
have — everything in good time. He was a spoiled little bunion. Reminded me of my ’brother,’ Donnie.”
    “How did the bruises get on Michael Goldberg’s body? Tell me what happened.”
    “You love this, don’t you, Doctor. What does that tell us about you, hmmm? Well, when I saw that he’d died on me, I was so angry. I flew into a rage. Kicked the fucking body all over the lot. Hit it with my digging shovel. I don’t remember what else I did. I was so pissed. Then I threw his dead ass in that river out in the sticks. The River Sticks?”
    “But you didn’t harm the girl? You didn’t hurt Maggie Rose Dunne?”
    “No,
I didn’t hurt the girl
.”
    He mimicked my concern. It was a pretty fair approximation of my voice. He definitely could act, play different parts. It was frightening to watch and to be in the same room with him. Could he have killed hundreds of times? I thought so.
    “Tell me about her. What really happened to Maggie Rose Dunne?”
    “All right, all right, all right. The Maggie Rose Dunne story. Light a candle, sing a hymn to Jesus for sweet mercy. After the abduction, she was groggy. The first time I looked in on her, anyway. She was coming off the secobarbital. I played Mommy Terror for little Maggie. I sounded the way Mommy T. used to sound at the basement door in our house. ’
Stopyercryin’… Shaddup. Shaddup, you spoiled little bunion
!’ That scared her pretty good, I’ll tell you. Then I put her out again. I carefully checked both of their pulses because I was certain the Fibbers would require some evidence that the children were alive.”
    “Their pulses were both all right?”
    “Yes. Just fine, Alex. I put my ear to each little chest. I controlled my natural urge to
stop
heartbeats rather than preserve them.”
    “Why the national kidnapping? Why all the publicity? Why take such a big chance?”
    “Because
I was ready
. I’d been practicing for a long, long time. I wasn’t taking any chances. I also needed the money. I deserved to be a millionaire. Everybody else is.”
    “You came back to check the children again the following day?” I asked him.
    “The next day she was fine, too. But the day after Michael Goldberg died, Maggie Rose was gone! I drove into the barn, and there was the hole in the ground where I’d buried the box. Big hole in the ground. Empty! I didn’t harm her. I didn’t get the ransom money down in Florida, either. Somebody else has it. Now, you have to figure out what happened, Detective.
I think I have
! I think I know the big secret.”

CHAPTER 74

    I WAS UP at three in the morning. Flying! Playing Mozart and Debussy and Billie Holiday on the porch. Junkies were probably calling the police to complain about the noise.
    I visited with Soneji again in the morning. The “Bad Boy.” I sat in his small windowless room. All of a sudden he wanted to talk. I thought I knew where he was going with all of this; what he was going to tell me soon. Still, I needed to have my opinion confirmed by him.
    “You have to understand something that is extremely foreign to your nature,” he said to me. “I was in heat when I was scouting the fucking famous girl and her actress mother. I am a ’cheap thrill’ artist and junkie. I needed a fix.” I couldn’t help thinking of my own child-abuse patients as I listened to him relate his bizarre, grisly experiences. It was pathetic to hear a
victim
talking about his many
victims
.
    “I understood the ’thrill state’ perfectly, Doctor. My theme song is ’Sympathy for the Devil.’ The Rolling Stones? I always tried to take proper precautions — without breaking
the spell
. I had figured out escape routes, and backup escape routes, ways in and out of every neighborhood that I entered. One of these involved a sewer-system tunnel that goes from the edge of the ghetto out to Capitol Hill. I had a change of clothing inside the tunnel, including a wig. I’d thought of everything. I wouldn’t get caught. I was very confident about my abilities. I believed in my own omnipotence.”
    “Do you still believe in your omnipotence?” It was a serious question. I didn’t think he’d tell me the truth, but I wanted to hear what he had to say, anyway.
    He said, “What happened back then, my one mistake, was I permitted my successes, the applause of millions of admirers, to rush to my head. The applause can be a drug.