Carpathian 06 - Dark Fire

happened."
    Tempest twisted a length of red-gold hair around her finger. "You have to live, Syndil, not simply exist.
    You can't let him rob you of your life, your passions."
    "But he did. That is exactly what he did. I loved him like a brother. I would have done anything for him.
    Yet he was so brutal, and his eyes were so vicious as he hurt me, as if he hated me." Syndil turned away.
    "It changed all of us. The men now look at one another with suspicion and distrust. If such a Generated by ABC Amber LIT Conv erter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit.html
    transformation could happen to Savon, perhaps it could happen to one of them, too. Darius has suffered terribly, because, as our leader, he feels responsible. I have tried to tell him he is not, but he has always cared for and protected us. I know that if I could get over this, it would ease his suffering, but I cannot."
    She looked at her hands. "The others do not treat me as they once did. Barack especially does not seem to trust me. They watch me all the time now, as if it were my fault."
    "Likely they are watching you protectively, not suspiciously. But you are not responsible for what anyone else is feeling, Syndil. You can overcome this, just as the others will in their own time and in their own way. You won't forget it-it might haunt your life and even your relationships-but you can be happy again,"
    Tempest assured her.
    "I have never spoken of this to anyone, not even Desari. I am sorry. I came here to help you, but I speak only of myself. I want to scream and weep and crawl into a hole. You are very easy to talk to."
    Tempest shook her head. "You have to find a way to go on."
    "Please tell me what happened to you, how you were able to cope."
    In the kitchen, Darius stirred, reluctant for Tempest to endure any more trauma. But he wanted to know, he had to know, and he realized it was important for both women to be able to discuss the traumatic events they had suffered.
    "I met a great lady who was working at one of the homeless shelters I landed in. I was seventeen at the time. She let me live at her house. I used to steal cars and soup up the engines just for the fun of it. Ellen made me realize I could put my mechanical skills to better use and make a good living while I was at it.
    She helped me get my high school equivalency diploma, and after that she got a me good job at a garage with a friend of hers. It was great for a while."
    "But something happened," Syndil guessed.
    Tempest shrugged pragmatically. "Ellen died, and I had nowhere to stay again. As soon as I was without protection, my boss showed his true colors. He caught me off guard. I trusted him; he was Ellen's friend.
    I really didn't expect it of him." She closed her eyes against the vivid memories crowding in, the way he had slammed her into a wall, knocking the breath out of her, leaving her dazed and completely vulnerable to his attack.
    "Did he hurt you?"
    "He wasn't gentle, if that's what you mean, and I had never… been with anyone. I decided it wasn't something I ever wanted to try again." She shrugged, trying not to wince when her ribs protested. "Unlike you, I've never had a family. I'm used to being on my own and working things out for myself. I've always had to learn everything the hard way. It's different for you. You had a life, a family. You know what love is."
    "I cannot imagine myself with a man ever again," Syndil said sadly.
    "You have to try, Syndil. You can't just withdraw from the world, from your family. Some of it has to be up to you. Ellen always told me to play the cards I'm dealt, not wish for another hand. You can't change what happened to you, but you can see to it that your life isn't destroyed by it."
    Listening from the kitchen, Darius vowed to himself that the group would play in the city where that Generated by ABC Amber LIT Conv erter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit.html
    garage owner lived sometime soon, and he would pay him a visit. Still, this was the first time he had heard Syndil talk to anyone about what had happened to her, and he felt a sense of great relief. If she could talk to Tempest, perhaps they both would benefit from the experience.
    He could feel weariness beating at his little redhead. Her body was sore, and shock was exhausting her.
    He knew she had jogged much of the distance she had managed to put between them, and she'd had no money for food or lodgings. He didn't want to interrupt the women, but Tempest was visibly sliding down