Cold Fire

hand on her slacks. She started to speak again, hesitated, but finally said, “Then … he got a little strange.”
    “Strange? In what way?”
    “Withdrawn. Quiet. He started taking martial-arts training. Tae Kwon Do. Lots of people are interested in that sort of thing, I guess, but it seemed so out of character for Jim.'”
    It didn't seem out of character for the Jim Ironheart that Holly knew.
    Viola said, “It wasn't casual with him, either. Every day after school he went for a lesson at a place in Newport Beach. He became obsessive. I worried about him. So in January, when he won the lottery, I was happy. Six million dollars! That's such a good thing, such big luck, it seemed like it would have to turn his life around, bring him out of his depression.”
    “But it didn't?”
    “No. He didn't seem all that surprised or pleased by it. He quit teaching, moved out of his apartment into a house … and pulled back even further from his friends.” She turned to Holly and smiled. It was the first smile she had managed for a while. “That's why I was so excited when you told me you were his sister, a sister he doesn't even know he has. Because maybe you can do for him what winning six million dollars couldn't do.”
    Guilt over her deception suffused Holly again, bringing a hot blush to her face. She hoped Viola would mistake it for a blush of pleasure or excitement. “It would be wonderful if I could.”
    “You can, I'm sure. He's alone, or feels that he is. That's part of his problem. With a sister, he won't be alone any more. Go see him today, right now.”
    Holly shook her head. “Soon. But not yet. I need to … build my confidence. You won't tell him about me, will you?”
    “Of course not, dear. You should have all the fun of telling him, and what a wonderful moment that'll be.”
    Holly's smile felt like a pair of rigid plastic lips glued to her face, as false as part of a Halloween costume.
    A few minutes later, at the front door, as Holly was leaving, Viola put a hand on her arm and said, “I don't want to give you the wrong idea. It won't be easy lifting his spirits, getting him back on track. As long as I've known Jim, I've felt there's a sadness deep down in him, like a stain that won't come out, which isn't such a surprise, really, when you consider what happened to his parents—his being orphaned when he was only ten, all of that.”
    Holly nodded. “Thanks. You've been a real help.”
    Viola impulsively hugged her, planted a kiss on her cheek, and said, “I want to have both you and Jim to dinner as soon as possible. Homemade green-corn tamales, black beans, and jalapeno rice so hot it'll melt your dental fillings!”
    Holly was simultaneously pleased and dismayed: pleased to have met this woman, who so quickly seemed to be a favorite aunt of long acquaintance; dismayed because she had met her and been accepted by her under false pretenses.
    All the way back to her rental car, Holly fiercely berated herself under her breath. She was at no loss for ugly words and clever damning phrases. Twelve years in newsrooms, in the company of reporters, had acquainted her with enough obscene language to insure her the trophy in a cursing contest with even the most foul-mouthed victim of Tourette's syndrome.
     

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    The Yellow Pages listed only one Tae Kwon Do school in Newport Beach. It was in a shopping center off Newport Boulevard, between a custom window-covering store and a bakery.
    The place was called Dojo, the Japanese word for a martial-arts practice hall, which was like naming a restaurant “Restaurant” or a dress shop “Dress Shop.” Holly was surprised by the generic name, because Asian businessmen often brought a poetic sensibility to the titling of their enterprises.
    Three people were standing on the sidewalk in front of Dojo's big window, eating eclairs and awash in the delicious aromas wafting from the adjacent bakery, watching a class of six students go through their routines with a squat but exceptionally limber Korean instructor in black pajamas. When the teacher threw a pupil to the mat inside, the plate-glass window vibrated.
    Entering, Holly passed out of the chocolate-, cinnamon-, sugar-, yeast-scented air into an acidic environment of stale incense laced with a vague perspiration odor. Because of a story she'd written about a Portland teenager who won a medal in a national competition, she knew Tae Kwon Do was an aggressive Korean form of karate, using fierce