Hopeless

to have a negative affect on me. Up until this week, I was pretty content with my lackluster life. I wonder if being exposed to the temptations of technology has left me wanting more, or if it’s being exposed to the temptations of Holder. Probably both.
    I stretch my legs out on the coffee table in front of me. I’m wearing jeans and a t-shirt today after finally deciding to give my sweatpants a break. I also have my hair down, but only because Holder has never seen me in anything other than a ponytail. Not that I’m trying to impress him.
    I’m totally trying to impress him.
    I pick up a magazine and flip through it, but my leg is shaking and I’m fidgeting to the point that I can’t focus. I read the same page three times in a row, so I throw the magazine back on the coffee table and lean my head back into the couch. I stare at the ceiling. Then I stare at the wall. Then I stare at my toes and wonder if I should repaint them.
    I’m going crazy.
    I finally groan and reach for my phone, then text him again.

    Now. Come right now. I’m bored out of my freaking mind and if you don’t come right now I’ll finish the book before you get here.

    I hold the phone in my hands and watch the screen as it bounces up and down against my knee. He texts back right away.

    Lol. I’m getting you food, bossy pants. Be there in twenty.

    Lol? What the hell does that mean? Lots of love? Oh, God, that better not be it. He’ll be out the door faster than Matty-boy. But really, what the hell does it mean?
    I stop thinking about it and focus on the last word. Twenty. Twenty minutes. Oh, shit, that suddenly seems way too soon. I run to the bathroom and check my hair, my clothes, my breath. I make a quick run through the house, cleaning it for the second time today. When the doorbell finally rings, I actually know what to do this time. Open it.
    He’s standing with two armfuls of groceries, looking very domesticated. I eye the groceries suspiciously. He holds the sacks up and shrugs. “One of us has to be the hospitable one.” He eases past me and walks straight to the kitchen and sets the sacks on the counter. “I hope you like spaghetti and meatballs, because that’s what you’re getting.” He begins removing items from the sacks and pulling cookware out of cabinets.
    I shut the front door and walk to the bar. “You’re cooking dinner for me?”
    “Actually, I’m cooking for me , but you’re welcome to eat some if you want.” He glances at me over his shoulder and smiles.
    “Are you always so sarcastic?” I ask.
    He shrugs. “Are you ?”
    “Do you always answer questions with questions?”
    “Do you ?”
    I pick up a hand towel off the bar and throw it at him. He dodges it, then walks to the refrigerator. “You want something to drink?” he asks.
    I put my elbows on the bar and rest my chin in my hands, watching him. “You’re offering to make me something to drink in my own house?”
    He searches through the refrigerator shelves. “Do you want milk that tastes like ass or do you want soda?”
    “Do we even have soda?” I’m almost positive I already drank up the stash I bought yesterday.
    He leans back out of the refrigerator and arches an eyebrow. “Can either of us say anything that isn’t a question?”
    I laugh. “I don’t know, can we?”
    “How long do you think we can keep this up?” He finds a soda and grabs two glasses. “You want ice?”
    “Are you having ice?” I’m not stopping with the questions until he does. I’m highly competitive.
    He walks closer to me and places our glasses on the counter. “Do you think I should have ice?” he says with a challenging grin.
    “Do you like ice?” I challenge back.
    He nods his head, impressed that I’ve kept up to speed with him. “Is your ice any good?”
    “Well, do you prefer crushed ice or cubed ice?”
    He narrows his eyes at me, aware that I just trapped him. He can’t answer that one with a question. He pops the lid open and begins pouring the soda into my cup. “No ice for you.”
    “Ha!” I say. “I win.”
    He laughs and walks back to the stove. “I let you win because I feel sorry for you. Anyone that snores as bad as you do deserves a break every now and then.”
    I smirk at him. “You know, the insults are really only funny when they’re in text form.” I pick my glass up and take a drink. It definitely needs ice. I walk to the freezer and pull out a few ice cubes and drop them into my cup.
    When I turn