The Broken Window

would only fuel the panic and destroy the reasonable.
    “He’s different. We have this connection. . . . I mean, the guys in school, it’s sports or video games. So boring.”
    “Pam, there are plenty of boys who read poetry and go to plays. Weren’t there any boys in Poetry Club?”
    “It’s not the same. . . . I don’t tell anybody what I went through, you know, with my mother and everything. But I told Stuart and he understood. He’s had a tough time too. His father was killed when he was my age. He had to put himself through school, working two jobs or three.”
    “It’s just not a good idea, honey. There’re problems you can’t even imagine now.”
    “He’s nice to me. I love being with him. Isn’t that the most important thing?”
    “That’s part of it but it’s not everything.”
    Pam’s arms folded defiantly.
    “And even if he’s not your teacher now he could get into really bad trouble too.” Somehow, saying this made Sachs feel that she’d already lost the argument.
    “He said I’m worth the risk.”
    You didn’t need to be Freud to figure it out: A girl whose father had been killed when she was young and whose mother and stepfather were domestic terrorists . . . she was primed to fall for an attentive, older man.
    “Come on, Amelia, I’m not getting married. We’re just dating.”
    “Then why not take a break? A month. Go out with a couple other guys. See what happens.” Pathetic, Sachs told herself. Her arguments smacked of a losing rear-guard action.
    An exaggerated frown. “Like, why would I want to do that? I’m not out there trying to hook a boy, just to have somebody, like every other girl in my class.”
    “Honey, I know you feel something for him. But just give it some time. I don’t want you hurt. There are a lot of wonderful guys out there. They’ll be better for you and you’ll be happier in the long run.”
    “I’m not breaking up with him. I love him. And he loves me.” She gathered up her books and said coolly, “I better go. I have homework.” The girl started toward the door but then stopped and turned back. She whispered, “When you started going out with Mr. Rhyme, didn’t somebody say it was a stupid idea? That you could find somebody who wasn’t in a wheelchair? That there were lots of ‘wonderful guys’ out there? I bet they did.”
    Pam held her eye briefly, then turned and left, closing the door behind her.
    Sachs reflected that, yes, indeed, somebody had said just that to her, practically those very words.
    And who else but Amelia Sachs’s own mother?
    •   •   •
    Miguel Abrera 5465-9842-4591-0243, the “maintenance specialist,” as the corporately correct say, left work at his usual time, around 5:00 P.M. He now gets out of the subway car near his home in Queens and I’m right behind him as he strolls home.
    I’m trying to stay calm. But it’s not easy.
    They—the police—are close, close to me ! Which has never happened before. In years and years of collecting, many dead sixteens, many ruined lives, many people in jail on my account, nobody has ever come close like this. Since I learned about the police suspicions, I’ve kept up a good facade, I’m sure. Still, I’ve been analyzing the situation frantically, pickingthrough the data, looking for the lump of gold that tells me what They know and what They don’t. How much at risk I really am. But I can’t find the answer.
    There’s too much noise in the data!
    Contamination . . .
    I’m running through how I’ve behaved lately. I’ve been careful. Data certainly can work against you; they can pin you to the grid like a blue Morpho menelaus butterfly, smelling of cyanide’s almond perfume, on a velvet board. But those of us in the know, we can use data for protection too. Data can be erased, can be massaged, can be skewed. We can add noise on purpose. We can place Data Set A right next to Data Set X to make A and X seem much more similar than they are. Or more different.
    We can cheat in the simplest of ways. RFIDs, for instance. Slip a smart pass transponder into someone’s suitcase and it will show your car’s been in a dozen places over the weekend, while in fact it’s actually been sitting in your garage the whole time. Or think about how easy it is to put your employee ID into an envelope and have it delivered to the office, where it sits for four hours until you ask somebody to collect the package and bring it to you in a restaurant