The Corrections
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“No, I get it,” Denise said. “There’s a definite want of sensitivity there.”
“I don’t even think so,” Robin said. “I think he’s deeply pissed off with me and he doesn’t even know it.”
From that day forward, Denise became a stealthy advocate of infidelity. She learned that by defending Brian’s minor insensitivities she could spur Robin to more serious accusations with which she then reluctantly concurred. She listened and she listened. She took care to understand Robin better than anyone else ever had. She plied Robin with the questions Brian wasn’t asking: about Billy, about her dad, about church, about her Garden Project plans, about the half-dozen teenagers who’d caught the gardening bug and were coming back next summer, about the romantic and academic travails of her young assistants. She attended Seed Catalogue Night at the Project and put faces to the names of Robin’s favorite kids. She did long division with Sinéad. She nudged conversations in the direction of movie stars or popular music or high fashion, the sorest topics in Robin’s marriage. To the untrained ear, she sounded as if she were merely advocatingcloser friendship; but she had seen Robin eat, she knew this woman’s hunger.
When a sewer-line problem delayed the opening of the Generator, Brian took the opportunity to attend the Kalama-zoo Film Festival with Jerry Schwartz, and Denise took the opportunity to hang out with Robin and the girls for five nights running. The last of these nights found her agonizing in the video store. She finally settled on Wait Until Dark (disgusting male menaces resourceful Audrey Hepburn, whose coloration happens to resemble Denise Lambert’s) and Something Wild (kinky, gorgeous Melanie Griffith liberates Jeff Daniels from a dead marriage). The very titles, when she arrived at Panama Street, made Robin blush.
Between movies, after midnight, they drank whiskey on the living-room sofa, and in a voice that even for her was unusually squeaky Robin asked permission to ask Denise a personal question. “How often, in, like, a week,” she said, “did you and Emile fool around?”
“I’m not the person to ask about what’s normal,” Denise answered. “I’ve mainly seen normal in the rearview mirror.”
“I know. I know.” Robin stared intensely at the blue TV screen. “But, what did you think was normal?”
“I guess, at the time, I had the sense,” Denise said, telling herself large number, say a large number , “that maybe three times a week might be normal.”
Robin sighed loudly. A square inch or two of her left knee rested against Denise’s right knee. “Just tell me what you think is normal,” she said.
“I think for some people, once a day feels right.”
Robin spoke in a voice like an ice cube compressed between molars. “I might like that. That doesn’t sound bad to me.”
A numbing and prickling and burning broke out on the engaged portion of Denise’s knee.
“I take it that’s not how things are.”
“Like twice a MONTH,” Robin said through her teeth. “Twice a MONTH.”
“Do you think Brian’s seeing somebody?”
“I don’t know what he does. But it doesn’t involve me. And I just feel like such a freak.”
“You’re not a freak. You’re the opposite.”
“So what’s the other movie?”
“ Something Wild .”
“OK, whatever. Let’s watch it.”
For the next two hours Denise mainly paid attention to her hand, which she’d laid on the sofa cushion within easy reach of Robin’s. The hand wasn’t comfortable there, it wanted to be retracted, but she didn’t want to give up hard-won territory.
When the movie ended they watched TV, and then they were silent for an impossibly long time, five minutes or a year, and still Robin didn’t take the warm, five-fingered bait. Denise would have welcomed some pushy male sexuality right around now. In hindsight, the week and a half she’d waited before Brian grabbed her had passed like a heartbeat.
At 4 a.m., sick with tiredness and impatience, she stood up to leave. Robin put on her shoes and her purple nylon parka and walked her to her car. Here, at last, she seized Denise’s hand in both of hers. She rubbed Denise’s palm with her dry, grown-woman thumbs. She said she was glad that Denise was her friend.
Stay the course , Denise enjoined herself. Be sisterly .
“I’m glad, too,” she said.
Robin produced
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