The Last Gentleman
boxâ (heâd been reading the brochure). âIt only come with GE and Servel!â
âWell, what in the world do they want it for,â moaned the flabbergasted engineer.
âWhen the heâp gone in the evenings and folks want to fix they drinks! They ainât going to want to fool with no old-fashioned knuckle-bruising traysâ (more from the brochure). âItâs not S.E. on the other boxes.â
âS.E.?â asked the engineer.
âStandard Equipment.â
âOh. Then youâre just going to walk up to some ladyâs house at ten oâclock in the morning and ring the doorbell and when she comes to the door youâre going to ask her to let you show this ice dispenser.â
âSho,â said David and began laughing at the sour-looking engineer, ts-ts-ts.
âWell, youâre not,â the engineer would groan. Damnation, David couldnât even polish silver. There was always silver cream left in the grooves. Still, the engineer liked to watch him at work. The morning sunlight fell among the silver fish in the shallows. The metal was creamy and satiny. The open jar of silver cream, the clotted rag, the gritty astringent smell of it, put him in mind of something but he couldnât say what.
But damn this awful vulnerability of theirs, he ranted, eyes fixed on the glittering silver. Itâs going to ruin us all, this helplessness. Why, David acted as if everybody was going to treat him well! If I were a Negro, Iâd be tougher than that. Iâd be steadfast and tough as a Jew and Iâd beat them. Iâd never rest until I beat them and I could. I should have been born a Negro, for then my upside-downness would be right side up and Iâd beat them and life would be simple.
But Oh Christ, David, this goddamn innocence, itâs going to ruin us all. You think theyâre going to treat you well, you act like youâre baby brother at home. Christ, theyâre not going to treat you well. Theyâre going to violate you and itâs going to ruin us all, you, them, us. And thatâs a shame because theyâre not that bad. Theyâre not bad. Theyâre better than most, in fact. But youâre going to ruin us all with your vulnerability. Itâs Godâs terrible vengeance upon us, Jamie said Val said, not to loose the seven plagues upon us or the Assyrian or even the Yankee, but just to leave you here among us with this fearful vulnerability to invite violation and to be violated twenty times a day, day in and day out, our lives long, like a young girl. Who would not? And so the best of us, Jamie said she said, is only good the way a rapist is good later, for a rapist can be good later and even especially good and especially happy.
But damn him, he thought, him and his crass black inept baby-brother vulnerability. Why should I, for Christâs sake, sit here all asweat and solicitous of his vulnerability. Let him go sell his non-knuckle-bruising ice trays and if he gets hurt: well, Iâm not well myself.
Davidâs mother, Lugurtha Ross, was cook. She was respectable and black as black, with a coppery highlight, and had a straight Indian nose. She wanted no trouble with anybody. All she wanted in the world was to find fervent areas of agreement. She spoke to you only of such things as juvenile delinquency. âChirren donât have any respect for their parents any more,â she would cry. âYou cainât even correck them!ââ even though David was her only living child and it was impossible to imagine him as a delinquent. She made it sound as if everybody were in the same boat; if only children would have more respect, our troubles would be over. She often made beaten biscuits in the evening, and as she sifted flour on the marble and handled the mitt of dough, she sang in a high decorous deaconess voice, not spirituals but songs she made up.
Up in an airplane
Smoking her sweet cigarette
She went way up in an airplane
Smoking her sweet cigarette
John Houghton, the gardener, lived in a room under the engineerâs apartment. An ancient little Negro with dim muddy eyes and a face screwed up like a prune around a patch of bristling somewhere near the middle of which was his mustache, he was at least sixty-five and slim and quick as a boy. He had come from the deep country of south Georgia and worked on the railroad and once as a hod carrier forty years ago when they built the
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