Wuthering Heights

ever since Mrs. Linton's death. »She might have been living yet, if it had not been for him!« was his constant bitter reflection; and, in his eyes, Heathcliff seemed a murderer.
    Miss Cathy, conversant with no bad deeds except her own slight acts of disobedience, injustice and passion, rising from hot temper, and thoughtlessness, and repented of on the day they were committed, was amazed at the blackness of spirit that could brood on, and cover revenge for years; & deliberately prosecute its plans, without a visitation of remorse. She appeared so deeply impressed and shocked at this new view of human nature – excluded from all her studies and all her ideas till now – that Mr. Edgar deemed it unnecessary to pursue the subject. He merely added,
    »You will know hereafter, darling, why I wish you to avoid his house and family – now, return to your old employments and amusements, and think no more about them!«
    Catherine kissed her father, and sat down quietly to her lessons for a couple of hours, according to custom: then she accompanied him into the grounds, and the whole day passed as usual: but in the evening, when she had retired to her room, and I went to help her to undress, I found her crying, on her knees by the bedside.
    »Oh, fie, silly child!« I exclaimed. »If you had any real griefs, you'd be ashamed to waste a tear on this little contrariety. You never had one shadow of substantial sorrow, Miss Catherine. Suppose, for a minute, that master and I were dead, and you were by yourself in the world – how would you feel, then? Compare the present occasion with such an affliction as that, and be thankful for the friends you have, instead of coveting more.«
    »I'm not crying for myself, Ellen,« she answered, »it's for him – He expected to see me again, to-morrow, and there, he'll be so disappointed – and he'll wait for me, and I shan't come!«
    »Nonsense,« said I: »do you imagine he has thought as much of you, as you have of him? Hasn't he Hareton, for a companion? Not one in a hundred would weep at losing a relation they had just seen twice, for two afternoons – Linton will conjecture how it is, and trouble himself no further about you.«
    »But may I not write a note to tell him why I cannot come?« she asked rising to her feet. »And just send those books, I promised to lend him – his books are not as nice as mine, and he wanted to have them extremely, when I told him how interesting they were – May I not, Ellen?«
    »No, indeed, no indeed!« replied I with decision. »Then he would write to you, and there'd never be an end of it – No, Miss Catherine, the acquaintance must be dropped entirely – so papa expects, and I shall see that it is done.«
    »But how can one little note –« she recommenced, putting on an imploring countenance.
    »Silence!« I interrupted. »We will not begin with your little notes – Get into bed!«
    She threw at me a very naughty look, so naughty that I would not kiss her good-night at first: I covered her up, and shut her door, in great displeasure – but, repenting half-way, I returned softly, and lo! there was Miss, standing at the table with a bit of blank paper before her, and a pencil in her hand, which she guiltily slipped out of sight, on my re-entrance.
    »You'll get nobody to take that, Catherine,« I said, »if you write it; and at present I shall put out your candle.«
    I set the extinguisher on the flame, receiving as I did so, a slap on my hand, and a petulant ›cross thing!‹ I then quitted her again, and she drew the bolt in one of her worst, most peevish humours.
    The letter was finished and forwarded to its destination by a milk-fetcher who came from the village, but that I didn't learn till some time afterwards. Weeks passed on, and Cathy recovered her temper, though she grew wondrous fond of stealing off to corners by herself, and often, if I came near her suddenly while reading she would start, and bend over the book, evidently desirous to hide it; and I detected edges of loose paper sticking out beyond the leaves.
    She also got a trick of coming down early in the morning, and lingering about the kitchen, as if she were expecting the arrival of something; and she had a small drawer in a cabinet in the library which she would trifle over for hours, and whose key she took special care to remove when she left it.
    One day, as she inspected this drawer, I observed that the play-things, and trinkets which recently formed its contents,