12th of Never
We’re not at that point, not even close. I want to check Julie into the hospital and get a full clinical workup,” the doctor said. “I think she may have an infection, but I want a second opinion.”
“An infection like the flu? Is that what you mean?” I said, my grip on the desk relaxing a tad.
“I think so, but I want other doctors to look at her. Look, Lindsay, she’s not gaining weight. She’s running intermittent fevers. It could be just how Julie is, or maybe she picked up something from one of the firemen who delivered her. But I’m guessing.
“I want to test for everything, aggressively. We should do X-rays, biopsies, the works.”
I shouted, “Oh, my God. You don’t think she has the flu. What is this? What do you think she has?”
Joe shushed me and put his hand on Julie’s head.
Dr. Gordon said, “I’m going to make sure that next time you ask me what’s wrong, I can give you an unqualified answer. California Women’s has a wonderful pediatric facility. I’d like you to bring her over—now.”
I had been worried for weeks, and now I thought those weeks had been wasted, that we should have pushed harder for answers.
I blamed myself for not overriding Joe and taking Julie to the hospital the first time she had a fever. I should have followed my instincts. I should have done it.
“I’ll meet you at admitting,” Dr. Gordon said.
I held the baby as Joe drove. He looked drained. Gray. “We’ll get to the bottom of this, Linds. We won’t have to wonder anymore, and Julie will get better.”
Yeah? And how did Joe know that?
We found a spot in the outpatient parking, carried the baby through the pale stone lobby, and took the elevator to pediatrics.
We got through the check-in procedure without either one of us blowing up or going crazy. We met the radiologist, who handed Julie to a nurse, who snapped a bracelet around her tiny wrist—and took her away.
Dr. Gordon said, “She’s in very good hands. I’ll call you as soon as I have something to tell you.”
“We’ll be right here, in the waiting room,” I said.
“This will take a couple of days,” Dr. Gordon told us. “Please go home. There’s nothing you can do for your daughter by waiting here when you live ten blocks away. You can look in on her tonight.”
I had a good hard cry in the hospital lobby. Joe held me tight, and then he drove us home.
Chapter 58
AT SIX THIRTY the next morning, my former partner, chief of police Warren Jacobi, swooped down on Lake Street in his shiny black sedan. He pulled up to where I was waiting for him outside our apartment building, leaned across the seat, and opened the passenger-side door for me.
He took a look at my face and said, “Good morning, sunshine.”
“Don’t start with me, Jacobi. I haven’t slept.”
“You worried about our meeting with Fish?”
“I meant I haven’t slept since Julie was born.”
“Well, you do look like hell.” He laughed. “On you, it looks good.”
I pulled a face, got into the car, took a container out of the cup holder, and pried off the lid with my shaking hands. Jacobi was a worn-looking fifty-five, white-haired, jowly, and, to my eyes, beautiful.
“Julie is in the hospital,” I said.
“Shit. What for? What’s wrong with her?”
The coffee was black, two sugars. Jacobi knew how I like it. I strapped in, then told my former partner everything I knew about what was wrong with Julie.
I didn’t know much.
Jacobi listened as we cruised up Lake Street, the nose of the car pointed east toward Modesto and then south to the U.S. penitentiary in Atwater.
Jacobi said how sorry he was that the baby was sick, and he also told me that I always worry too much and that everything would be fine.
“Of course, when you stop worrying, that’s when things really turn to shit.”
“I’ve really missed you, Jacobi. Like a migraine.”
He laughed and got me to do it, too.
It was almost like old times.
During the ten years I worked with Jacobi, we logged innumerable twenty-hour days in a squad car, arrested a few dozen killers and unrepentant dirtbags, and we both took bullets one bad night in an unlit alley in the Tenderloin.
We could have died and almost did.
A year later, Jacobi stood in for my dead father and gave me away to Joe Molinari. I tripped down the petal-strewn path, fumbled the wedding ring, and Jacobi laughed out loud on the best day of my life. We’ve had hilarious times and horrific ones, but we’ve never
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