A Lonely Resurrection

involved in some way in her father’s death, but she wouldn’t be able to let that suspicion go, either.
    “Did I handle it right?” Harry asked.
    I shrugged. “You couldn’t have handled it any better than you did. But she’s still not buying it.”
    “You think she’ll let it go?”
    That was the question I was always left with. I hadn’t managed to answer it. “I don’t know,” I told him.
    And there was something else I didn’t know, something I wouldn’t share with Harry. I didn’t know if I
wanted
her to let it go.
    What had I just told him?
You can’t live with one foot in daylight and the other in shadows.
I needed to take my own damn advice.

CHAPTER 4
    I saw Harry off around one. The subways were already closed and he caught a cab. He told me he was going home to wait for Yukiko.
    I tried to picture a beautiful young hostess, pulling down the yen equivalent of a thousand dollars a night in tips in one of Tokyo’s exclusive establishments, with her pick of wealthy businessmen and politicians for paramours, hurrying home to Harry’s apartment after work. I just couldn’t see it.
    Don’t be so cynical,
I thought.
    But my gut wasn’t buying it, and I’ve learned to trust my gut.
    It’s still early. Just take a look. It’s practically on the way to the hotel.
    If Harry had changed his mind about going home and had gone to Damask Rose instead, though, he’d know I was checking up on him. He might not be surprised, but he wouldn’t like it, either.
    But the chances that Harry would stop by there on his own dime, when Yukiko was due to come to his place in just a few hours anyway, were slim. The risk was worth taking.
    And Nogizaka was only a few kilometers away. What the hell.
    I tried directory assistance from a public phone, but there was no listing for a Damask Rose. Well, Harry had said they didn’t advertise.
    Still, I could just go and have a look.
    I walked the short distance to Nogizaka, then strolled up and down Gaienhigashi-dori. It took awhile, but I finally spotted it. There was no sign, only a small red rose on a black awning.
    The entrance was flanked by two black men, each of sufficient bulk to have been at home in the sumo pit. Their suits were well tailored and, given the size of the men wearing them, must have been custom-made. Nigerians, I assumed, whose size, managerial acumen, and relative facility with the language had made them a rare foreign success story, in this case as both middle management and muscle for many of the area’s entertainment establishments. The
mizu shobai,
or “water trade” of entertainment and pleasure, is one of the few areas in which Japan can legitimately claim a degree of internationalization.
    They bowed and opened the club’s double glass doors for me, each issuing a baritone
irasshaimase
as they did so. Welcome. One of them murmured something into a microphone set discreetly into his lapel.
    I walked down a short flight of stairs. A ruddy-faced, prosperous-looking Japanese man whom I put at about forty greeted me in a small foyer. Interchangeable J-Pop techno music was playing from the room beyond.
    “Nanmeisama desho ka?”
Mr. Ruddy asked. How many?
    “Just one,” I said in English, holding up a finger.
    “Of course.” He motioned that I should follow him.
    The room was rectangular, flanked by dance stages on either end. The stages were simple, distinguished only by mirrored walls behind them and identical brass poles at their centers. One stage was occupied by a tall, long-haired blonde wearing high heels and a green g-string and nothing more. She was dancing somewhat desultorily, I thought, but seemed to have the attention of the majority of the club’s clientele regardless. Russian, I guessed. Large-boned and large-breasted. A delicacy in Japan.
    Harry hadn’t mentioned floorshows. Probably he was embarrassed. My sense that something was amiss deepened.
    On the other stage, there was a girl who looked like a mix of Japanese and something Mediterranean or Latin. A good mix. She had that silky, almost shimmering black hair so many modern Japanese women like to ruin with
chapatsu
dye, worn short and swept over from the side. The shape of the eyes was also Japanese, and she was on the petite side. But her skin, a smooth gold like melted caramel, spoke of something else, something tropical. Her breasts and hips, too, appealingly full and slightly incongruous on her Japanese-sized frame, suggested some foreign origin. She was