City Of Bones

take in the locker room, we could probably catch the last martini call at Musso’s.”
    She smiled broadly now.
    “I love that place. Give me fifteen minutes.”
    She headed toward the station door without waiting for a reply from him.
    “I’ll be here,” he called after her.

Chapter 10
    MUSSO and Frank’s was an institution that had been serving martinis to the denizens of Hollywood-both famous and infamous-for a century. The front room was all red leather booths and quiet conversation with ancient waiters in red half-coats moving slowly about. The back room contained the long bar, where most nights it was standing room only while patrons vied for the attention of bartenders who could have been the fathers of the waiters. As Bosch and Brasher came into the bar two patrons slipped off their stools to leave. Bosch and Brasher quickly moved in, beating two black-clad studio types to the choice spots. A bartender who recognized Bosch came over and they both ordered vodka martinis, slightly dirty.
    Bosch was already feeling at ease with her. They had spent lunch together at the crime scene picnic tables the last two days and she had never been far from his sight during the hillside searches. They had ridden over to Musso’s together in his car and it seemed like a third or fourth date already. They small-talked about the division and the details Bosch was willing to part with about his case. By the time the bartender put down their martini glasses along with the sidecar carafes, he was ready to forget about bones and blood and baseball bats for a while.
    They clinked glasses and Brasher said, “To life.”
    “Yeah,” Bosch said. “Getting through another day.”
    “Just barely.”
    Bosch knew that now was the time to talk to her about what was troubling her. If she didn’t want to talk, he wouldn’t press it.
    “That guy you called Kiko in the back lot, why’d he tell you to cheer up?”
    She slumped a little and didn’t answer at first.
    “If you don’t want to talk about-”
    “No, it’s not that. It’s more like I don’t want to think about it.”
    “I know the feeling. Forget I asked.”
    “No, it’s okay. My partner’s going to write me up and since I’m on probation, it could cost me.”
    “Write you up for what?”
    “Crossing the tube.”
    It was a tactical expression, meaning to walk in front of the barrel of a shotgun or other weapon held by a fellow officer.
    “What happened? I mean, if you want to talk about it.”
    She shrugged and they both took long drinks from their glasses.
    “Oh, it was a domestic-I hate domestics-and the guy locked himself in the bedroom with a gun. We didn’t know if he was going to use it on himself, his wife or us. We waited for backup and then we were going to go in.”
    She took another drink. Bosch watched her. Her inner turmoil showed clearly in her eyes.
    “Edgewood had shotgun. Kiko had the kick. Fennel, Kiko’s partner, and I had the door. So we did the deed. Kiko’s big. He opened the door with one kick. Fennel and I went in. The guy was passed out on the bed. Seemed like no problem but Edgewood had a big problem with me. He said I crossed the tube.”
    “Did you?”
    “I don’t think so. But if I did, then so did Fennel, and he didn’t say jack to him.”
    “You’re the rookie. You’re the one on probation.”
    “Yeah, and I’m getting tired of it, that’s for sure. I mean, how did you make it through, Harry? Right now you’ve got a job that makes a difference. What I do, just chasing the radio all day and night, going from dirtbag to dirtbag, it’s like spitting on a house fire. We’re not making any headway out there and on top of that I’ve got this uptight male asshole telling me every two minutes how I fucked up.”
    Bosch knew what she was feeling. Every cop in a uniform went through it. You wade through the cesspool every day and soon it seems that that is all there is. An abyss. It was why he could never go back to working patrol. Patrol was a Band-Aid on a bullet hole.
    “Did you think it would be different? When you were in the academy, I mean.”
    “I don’t know what I thought. I just don’t know if I can make it through to a point where I think I’m making any difference.”
    “I think you can. The first couple years are tough. But you dig in and you start seeing the long view. You pick your battles and you pick your path. You’ll do all right.”
    He didn’t feel confident giving her the rah-rah