Club Dead

the battle going on in the next apartment.
    “Take me home,” I said.
    “Of course,” he said. “Now?”
    “Yes. Alcide can drop my things by when he goes back to Baton Rouge.”
    “Is the Lincoln drivable?”
    “Oh, yes.” I pulled the keys out of my pocket. “Here.”
    We walked out of the empty apartment and took the elevator down to the garage.
    Bill didn’t follow.

Chapter Thirteen
    E RIC CAUGHT UP with me as I was climbing into the Lincoln.
    “I had to give Bill a few instructions about cleaning up the mess he caused,” he said, though I didn’t ask.
    Eric was used to driving sports cars, and he had a few issues with the Lincoln.
    “Had it occurred to you,” he said, after we’d rolled out of the city’s center, “that you tend to walk away when things between you and Bill become rocky? Not that I mind, necessarily, since I would be glad for you two to sever your association. But if this is the pattern you follow in your romantic attachments, I want to know now.”
    I thought of several things to say, discarded the first few, which would have blistered my grandmother’s ears, and drew a deep breath.
    “Firstly, Eric, what happens between Bill and me is just none of your damn business.” I let that sink in for a few seconds. “Second, my relationship with Bill is the only one I’ve ever had, so I’ve never had any idea what I’m going to do even from day to day, much less establishing a policy.” I paused to work on phrasing my next idea. “Third, I’m through with you all. I’m tired of seeing all this sick stuff. I’m tired of having to be brave, and having to do things that scare me, and having to hang out with the bizarre and the supernatural. I am just a regular person, and I just want to date regular people. Or at least people who are breathing .”
    Eric waited to see if I’d finished. I cast a quick glance over at him, and the streetlights illuminated his strong profile with its knife-edge nose. At least he wasn’t laughing at me. He wasn’t even smiling.
    He glanced at me briefly before turning his attention back to the road. “I’m listening to what you say. I can tell you mean it. I’ve had your blood: I know your feelings.”
    A mile of darkness went by. I was pleased Eric was taking me seriously. Sometimes he didn’t; and sometimes he didn’t seem to care what he said to me.
    “You are spoiled for humans,” Eric said. His slight foreign accent was more apparent.
    “Maybe I am. Though I don’t see that as much of a loss, since I didn’t have any luck with guys before.” Hard to date, when you know exactly what your date is thinking. So much of the time, knowing a man’s exact thoughts can erase desire and even liking. “But I’d be happier with no one than I am now.”
    I’d been considering the old Ann Landers rule of thumb: Would I be better off with him, or without him? My grandmother and Jason and I had read Ann Landers every day when Jason and I had been growing up. We’d discussed all Ann’s responses to reader questions. A lot of the advice she’d ladled out had been intended to help women deal with guys like Jason, so he certainly brought perspective to the conversations.
    Right at this moment, I was pretty darn sure I was better off without Bill. He’d used me and abused me, betrayed me and drained me.
    He’d also defended me, avenged me, worshiped me with his body, and provided hours of uncritical companionship, a very major blessing.
    Well, I just didn’t have my scales handy. What I had was a heart full of hurt and a way to go home. We flew through the black night, wrapped in our own thoughts. Traffic was light, but this was an interstate, so of course there were cars around us from time to time.
    I had no idea what Eric was thinking about, a wonderful feeling. He might be debating pulling over to the shoulder and breaking my neck, or he might be wondering what tonight’s take at Fangtasia would add up to. I wanted him to talk to me. I wished he would tell me about his life before he became a vampire, but that’s a real touchy subject with lots of vamps, and I wasn’t about to bring it up tonight of all nights.
    About an hour out of Bon Temps, we took an exit ramp. We were a little low on gas, and I needed to use the ladies’ room. Eric had already begun to fill the tank as I eased my sore body carefully out of the car. He had dismissed my offer to pump the gas with a courteous, “No, thank you.” One other car was filling up,