Deathstalker 04 - Deathstalker Honor

an empty great house with most of the rooms shut up and only a few old Family retainers for company. They stayed out of loyalty, out of memory for the way things had been, rather than the money. Which was just as well. Julian had made a great deal of money as a holo star, but tended to spend it as fast as it came in. If the bank hadn’t been so scared of him, they’d probably be sending him threatening letters by now. He would have worried how he was going to support himself in the future, if he’d thought he had a future.
    He hurt pretty much all the time now. There were painkillers, of course, but the only ones strong enough to deal with the pain left him sleeping all day or stumbling dimly around like a zombie. He preferred to spend whatever time he had left in his right mind. He was pretty sure he was going to die this time. He’d come close to dying on Haceldama, but Giles Deathstalker had used his powers to work a cure. Only like so many things with Giles, the appearance hadn’t been reality. The cure hadn’t lasted. And now Giles was dead, and the four remaining Maze survivors were all off-world somewhere on unknown missions.
    Even if he could have tracked them down, and brought himself to beg, he doubted very much they could get back to Golgotha in time to do him any good. And besides, he’d never been any good at begging.
    That was one of the things that had made him a rebel in the first place.
    Julian looked back over his early rebel days with a rueful smile. He’d been so young, so sure, ready to take on any mission, any risk, as long as it was for the cause. In retrospect, he had to admit he did it mostly for the thrills and the action. For the kicks. But he did a lot of good along the way, and saved as many lives as he took. The new government had wanted to give him all kinds of medals, but he’d politely turned them down. He never really felt he’d earned them, because it had all been such a good time. Until the Empire caught him, and put him in the interrogation cells, and gave him to the torturers. All because his one true love BB Chojiro betrayed him. She broke his heart, and they broke his spirit, and even though Finlay Campbell rescued him, he was never the same afterward.
    He sighed and did his best to push the old, bitter thoughts aside. If he was going to die, he was determined to make the most of what was left of his life. Have some fun while he still could. Do all the things he’d meant to do but never had because the rebellion intervened. He’d enjoyed his time as a rebel, had his fair share of adventures and more, but it had quickly taken over his life. There was never time to relax, let his guard down, have a good time with a few friends. The rebellion had been his life.
    And then they took it away from him. By winning. He couldn’t be an adventurer anymore. His fighting days were over. The new order had no use for him even before his frailty became clear. His brand of get the job done and to hell with the consequences fighting was out of fashion. It was all diplomacy now, with carefully worked-out deals and compromises put together in private smoke-filled rooms. Usually with someone from Blue Block adding quiet advice from the sidelines. It was all politics now, and Julian didn’t understand any of it.
    He had considered going back to Haceldama and spending his final days in Summerland, but he couldn’t do that. His death would have upset the toys too much.
    Most of his friends were dead. It had been a hard war, and the rebellion had chewed up young men and women as fast as it could take them. Julian had learned the hard way not to get too attached to anyone.
    The only real friend he had was Finlay Campbell, and these days the old assassin was in almost as bad shape as he was. Finlay had been coming apart at the seams for some time now, and the more Julian tried to help, the more Finlay pushed him away. The only other man Julian had really admired had been the legendary Young Jack Random. Julian never really got over finding out he’d been following a Fury, a Shub war machine in the shape of a man. He’d destroyed the Fury with his esp, but it hadn’t helped. It seemed like every time Julian ended up trusting someone, they always betrayed him in the end.
    He’d killed the man who killed his brother, Auric, the Masked Gladiator himself, and that at least had been something he could be proud of. He could have killed the bastard a dozen times and never tired of it. And yet