Dreaming of the Bones

prosecution’s case.” Kincaid looked from Nathan to Adam. ”But it will mean revealing your own parts in the cover-up of Verity Whitecliff’s death, regardless of the personal consequences.”
    ”I think we’ve had quite enough of secrets,” said Adam. Nathan looked up at them, his eyes dark. ”What chance have you of getting a conviction on nothing but our word? There won’t be any evidence left of how Verity died or that he killed her.”
    Kincaid glanced at Gemma. ”We can only recommend to the Crown Prosecution Service, but my guess is that they’ll charge him with Vic’s and Verity’s deaths, and use Lydia’s for evidence of system in Vic’s case. We’ve the best chance of finding physical evidence in Vic’s case, and in Verity’s the court can rule based solely on the testimony of witnesses. And that means you and Adam.”
    ”I’ll do whatever it takes,” said Nathan, then he shook his head. ”If I’d only known what Vic suspected ..
    ”We’re all going to have to live with our ifs ,” Kincaid said heavily, and rose. ”I’d advise you to get some rest. You’re going to need it.”
    They said good-bye to Nathan and Adam at the door. When Kincaid shook Nathan’s hand, he felt the kinship of those who pass through the eye of the same needle. They had loved Vic, and she was gone.
    He followed Gemma slowly to the car and handed her the keys, suddenly too exhausted to drive. Climbing in beside her, he slumped in his seat, but before she could start the engine he reached for her hand and held it between his.
    ”I thought you were going to shoot him,” said Gemma, turning to him.
    ”So did I.”
    ”I daresay he deserved it.” She searched his face. ”Why didn’t you?”
    He thought for a moment, trying to formulate an answer in words. ”I’m not sure,” he said finally. ”I suppose because it would’ve meant accepting violence as a solution.” He traced his fingers lightly over Gemma’s, then looked up into her eyes. ”And then what would have separated me from Darcy?”

    Cambridge
    1 September 1986

    Darling Mummy,

    I have been in a black hell this past week, railing against fate for taking you from me, railing against you for not letting me cling to false hope. Until now I’d begun to believe I’d been tested in my life — I’d even been smug enough to think I’d endured more than my share and that I’d emerged with some sort of fire-forged honor.
    But when your news came I found nothing had prepared me for this, that the courage I’d taken such pride in was a mere travesty, and I thought I could not bear it.
    I woke early this morning to find frost on the windowpanes and the first crisp hint of autumn in the air. I dressed and went out, compelled by an urgency I didn’t understand, and walked until I reached the river meadows. It was you who taught me about the healing power of walking—about the magic in the harmony of breath and stride that opens the connection between heart and mind.
    Then somewhere in that clear space between field and sky, I saw my anger for what it was.
    Losing you means I must grow up, at last, and I’ve been kicking and screaming like a child unwilling to come into the world.
    I saw that I’d underestimated the strength and capacity of your love for me, but that you had not done me the same disservice. You thought me equal to the task before me, and so I must be.
    Why are the old truths so simple and so hard to learn? Love is a two-edged sword—it can be no other way. I will be forever blessed by your love, and forever diminished by your loss.

    Lydia

    The air under the yews felt cool and damp against Kit’s face. It had a musty, humic odor that reminded him of the way the mud smelled when he dug in the riverbank, but his flash of pleasure at the thought quickly faded. There didn’t seem much point now in wanting to be a naturalist.
    Tess whimpered and pulled at her lead, but Kit stood fast, not yet willing to move from the dimness of the tunnel. He carried the books Nathan had lent him, and it felt to him as if returning them would sever his last connection with the village.
    Mrs. Miller had brought him to the cottage that morning to help him pack up the remainder of his things, then had agreed to return for him after he’d visited Nathan. Colin had offered, awkwardly, to come with him, but Kit refused. He’d wanted a few minutes alone to say good-bye to the cottage.
    When they’d driven away, he stood for a long while in the