False Memory
obsession?
How obvious can it be? Lampton said with pedantic smugness. The purpose of makeup is to defy the degradations of time, and time is just a synonym for death.
Im still struggling with Barbie dolls, Dusty said.
Think about it, Lampton urged. What is a doll but an image of a corpse? Unmoving, unbreathing, stiff, lifeless. Little girls playing with dolls are playing with corpsesand learning not to fear death excessively.
I remember being obsessed with sex, Dusty admitted, but
Sex is a lie, Junior said. Sex is denial. People turn to sex to avoid facing the truth that life is about death. Its not about creation. Its about dying.
Lampton smiled down on his son as though he might burst his shirt buttons with pride. Derek here has chosen to immerse himself in death for a while, in order to put the fear of it behind him much sooner than most people ever do. Its a legitimate technique for self-forced maturation.
I havent put it behind me, Martie noted.
You see? Lampton said, as if she had made his point for him. Last year, it was sex, as it always is with fourteen-year-old boys. Next yearsex again, once hes done immersing himself in this.
Dusty suspected that after a year of living in this black room, obsessing on death, Junior might be the lead item on the evening news one night, and not because he had won a spelling bee.
To the boy, Lampton said, Dusty and Martie are interested in our guerrilla operation against Mark Ahriman.
That creep, Junior said. You want to whack him some more?
Why dont we? Lampton said, rubbing his hands together.
Junior rolled off the bed, onto his feet, stretched, and then headed out of the room. As he passed Martie, he said, Nice tits.
Beaming after him, Lampton said, You see? Already, hes moving out of this phase of death obsession, even though he doesnt entirely recognize it yet.
In the past, Dusty and Martie had felt like kidnapping the boy, hiding out with him in some far place, and raising him themselves, to give him a chance at a normal life. A glance at Martie confirmed that she, like Dusty, still felt like hiding out, although perhaps from Junior rather than with him anymore.
They followed the boy into Lamptons upstairs study, where Skeet and Claudette were waiting with Foster Newton.
Fig was standing by the window, peering out at the front yard and the driveway.
Hey, Fig, Dusty said.
He turned. Hey.
Are you okay? Martie worried.
Fig nicked up his shirt to show them his chest and belly, which were neither as pale nor as slim as Skeets, and which were darkened by a different but equally ugly pattern of bruises from the impact of four slugs that had been stopped by Kevlar body armor.
This is a very trying morning, said Claudette, grimacing with distaste.
Im okay, Fig assured her, missing the point.
You saved our lives, Martie told him. Fire truck?
Yes.
And he saved mine, too, Skeet said. Fig shook his head. Kevlar.
The boy was sitting at his fathers desk, before the computer.
Lampton stood behind Junior, watching over his shoulder. Here we go.
Dusty and Martie crowded close and saw that Junior was composing a scathing and well-written mini-review of Learn to Love Yourself.
Where were going with this, Lampton said, is the readers review page on the Amazon.com site. Weve written and posted over a hundred and fifty denunciations of Learn to Love Yourself using different names and E-mail addresses.
Appalled, Dusty flashed to the memory of the inhuman viciousness in Ahrimans face and eyes when they had confronted him in his office a short while ago. Whose names and E-mail addresses? he asked, wondering what vengeance the psychiatrist might have extracted from these unsuspecting and innocent people.
Dont worry, Lampton said, when we use real names, we choose brain-dead types who dont read much. They arent likely to visit Amazon and see any of this.
Anyway, Junior said, most of the time we just make up names and E-mail addresses, which is even better.
You can do that? Martie wondered.
The Net is liquid, Junior said.
Trying to puzzle out the full meaning of that statement, Dusty said, Its difficult to separate fiction from reality.
Its better than that. Fiction and reality dont matter. Its all the same, one river.
Then how do you find
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