Hooked

what she’d learned from dealing with the people who loved her, she knew she couldn’t live with herself if she just dropped that bomb and watched him scurry away in embarrassment. Or have him blame Terrie for putting him in such a spot.
    “Terrie doesn’t know,” she said, lowering her voice and leaning in. “As you can imagine, it’s something I’ve kept pretty close to the vest. In the fashion business, you don’t want to be seen as anything but vigorous and healthy.” She touched his arm with a tentative smile. “Being in business yourself, you would understand that in a way few people could.”
    Her words took a moment to register, but he returned her smile with a newfound equilibrium. Keeping up a face for the business— that he understood. After a moment, Steph sensed his discomfort melting into a more human bit of concern.
    “And it’s been such a lovely wedding,” she continued. “I’d hate for my news to spoil it for Cassie, or Terrie and Rick.”
    “I won’t say anything,” he said, giving her hand on his sleeve a pat. “Hey, how about a refill on that mimosa?”
    And just like that, Muskrat Bob became an insider in the biggest secret of her life. He actually came back to sit beside her, and as the table filled up around them, he became a fount of good-natured blather and appealingly awful puns. It turned into a fairly enjoyable wedding brunch.
    Until the toasts.
    The first was the maid of honor’s retelling of the bride and groom’s meeting, so sweet it should have had diabetic warnings before and after. Then came the parental “welcome to the family” speeches, complete with reminiscences of childhoods and declarations of destined love. Cassie and Jason were perfect for each other, completed each other, enlarged and encouraged each other. Boxes of tissues covertly made the rounds.
    With each testimony, Steph felt a little more estranged and out of place. She adored Cassie and Terrie and their family, but all the talk of fated love and happily-ever-after was too much just now. Memories of her own checkered romantic past—of “almosts” that never became “for always”—began to scramble for attention in her head.
    When yet another bridesmaid took the microphone, she gave Bob’s hand a pat and excused herself to go to the restroom. Reaching the porch of the Red Setter, she kept moving. Once on the bark-lined path that snaked among the various lodges and cabins, she glanced down at her flat shoes and deemed them sturdy enough for some walking, then struck off on the road around the lake.
    Wind rustled leaves, sunlight dappled the ground beneath the newly greened trees, and the tart, earthy scents of the warming spring worked a calming magic. When she emerged into a sunny spot on the path, the contrast of warm sun and cool breeze on her exposed skin made it feel like the loveliest day ever. She appreciated such things more now. The simple acts of walking and breathing the crisp, clean air were pure pleasure.
    Then her brain started to work.
    Romance. True love. The happiness in Cassie’s face. Why hadn’t Steph ever felt so happy, so fulfilled, so sure of someone’s love?
    The answer, as she’d come to see it over the last year, was that she’d been too busy making money, making a name for herself and making good on the promise that her parents, professors and early business associates had seen in her. She’d always put love and relationships second, because there would be time for that later.
    Well, now it was “later.” And she had one and a half breasts, an uncertain future, and a baggage train longer than most of the men she had considered too “entangled” to get involved with.
    How long Steph walked, trying to lose herself in nature, she couldn’t have said, but when she heard the voices, her cheeks were warm and her shoes were rubbing in places that said “too long.” She rounded a bend in the path and spotted a number of women thirty or forty yards away, at the water’s edge, wearing tan vests and a variety of hats and caps. They all looked oddly plump, until she realized they were wearing those fishing things— waders .
    Edging closer, into the shade of a tree beside the path, she watched them laughing and waving their fishing rods around, seemingly having a great time. A bunch of women who—
    A booming male voice made her reassess that thought. She quickly located a tall man who was giving and getting hugs galore, and bantering with the women. There