Invasion

using him as a tool for communication-but you're not speaking with his vocabulary."
        "For the brief moments we were in your mind, your wife's mind, and the minds of the
        Johnsons, we absorbed all of your language. The boy is not a dictionary, just a translator and loud speaker."
        "You killed the Johnsons."
        "That does not matter."
        "For God's sake!"
        "Death does not matter."
        "It's all that matters."
        "Curious."
        "I'll write the book," I said, slumping back in the chair.
        "In three earth days."
        "I can do it," I said. "I won't worry about style or grammar or punctuation. I'll just get the raw emotion down, the emotion and the fact."
        "You will write a book."
        "My typewriter is an electric model," I said. And then I realized that the lights were on. Not the heat, of course, for they couldn't tolerate it. But that would be turned on after they left.
        "We have repaired the generator. Now we will leave you to your work."
        They took Toby with them when they left. I watched them until they disappeared into the woods. Would
        I ever see him again?
        On my way back to the den, I passed a photograph of
        Connie. It was in a silver frame on top of the piano. She played the piano well;
        I could almost hear her music. And the sight of her face was like a punch in the stomach. I doubled over and went to my knees and wept loudly.
        Death is not mutable.
        Death is not beatable.
        Death is not cheatable.
        Death is not a joke.
        Death is real and final.
        But the world is a madhouse.
        Remember that. Don't take it seriously.
        I don't know how long I remained on my knees, my head on the floor, weeping. A long time. Perhaps hours. When I finally got up, my chest ached and my throat was sore and my eyes burned.
        But when I did get up I went into the den and rolled a sheet of paper into the typewriter. I would write the book. Somehow, I would hold myself together long enough to write the book.
        Connie was gone forever. But Toby was still alive. There was not much chance that they would let me have him or that they would let us live, but I had to hold onto even the frailest thread of hope. And so I kept telling myself: If you write the book, maybe you'll save yourself and Toby. And so I began to type.

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    26.
        
        It's finished.
        In three days I have written one hundred and eighty manuscript pages, and I am burnt out. I slept only one night out of three and took perhaps four or five one-hour naps. I have gotten through this ordeal with the aid of a fifth of Wild Turkey bourbon, a box of No-Doz caffeine tablets, and several bennies (prescribed for me in the days when I suffered bouts of lethargy and depression, just after I got out of the sanitarium). Bourbon, caffeine, and speed: that is not a good combination, not good at all. I stagger when I walk, and I can't think clearly any more.
        But it's finished.
        I will get up from this desk in a few minutes and go into the living room and sit down to wait for them.
        Somehow they will know that the book is written. What they expect to learn from it, I do not understand. It is obvious to me that our races are so terribly different-physiologically and psychologically- that no one book, no one man's explanations can ever bridge the gulf between us. They will study the text I have prepared, will be puzzled by it-and then, will they kill us?
        It's finished.
        Now let's finish the rest of it.
        Come on, you bastards.

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    EPILOGUE
        
        Some time during my lonely vigil I fell asleep on the couch. I didn't dream. But when I woke up, muttering to myself and wiping imaginary cobwebs from my face, there were two nightmares in the living room with me: two of the aliens stood before me with Toby between them.
        The air was chilly. They had turned off the heating system long before they'd entered the house. I shivered uncontrollably.
        I sat up and rubbed at my eyes and grimaced at the awful taste in my mouth. "It's finished," I told them.
        As before they spoke to me through Toby. "We have read the manuscript."
        "Already?"
        "You have slept for more than twelve hours."
        "Oh." I stood up, no longer intimidated by them. My face was within inches of one alien's