Shadow of the Hegemon, the - Book 2 (Ender)

had gone into a steep dive, and for a few moments she found herself gasping as the oxygen-rich air was replaced by cold upper-level air that left her dizzy.
    The hull was breached. They've shot us down.
    And for all that she had an indomitable will to live, she couldn't help but think: Good for them. Kill Achilles now, and no matter who else is on the plane, it'll be a great day for humanity.
    But the plane soon leveled out, and the air was breathable before she blacked out. They must not have been very high when it happened.
    She opened the bathroom door and stepped back into the main cabin.
    The side door was partway open. And standing a couple of meters back from it was Achilles, the wind whipping at his hair and clothes. He was posing, as if he knew just how fine a figure he cut, standing there on the brink of death.
    She approached him, glancing at the door to make sure she stayed well back from it, and to see how high they were. Not very, compared to cruising altitude, but higher than any building or bridge or dam. Anyone who fell from this plane would die.
    Could she get behind him and push?
    He smiled broadly when she got near.
    "What happened?" she shouted over the noise of the wind.
    "It occurred to me," he yelled back, "that I made a mistake bringing you with me."
    He opened the door on purpose. He opened it for her.
    Just as she began to step back, his hand lashed out and seized her by the wrist.
    The intensity of his eyes was startling. He didn't look crazy. He looked ... fascinated. Almost as if he found her amazingly beautiful. But of course it wasn't her It was his power over her that fascinated him. It was himself that he loved so intensely.
    She didn't try to pull away. Instead, she twisted her wrist so that she also gripped him.
    "Come on, let's jump together," she shouted. "That would be the most romantic thing we could do."
    He leaned close. "And miss out on all the history we're going to make together?" he said. Then he laughed. "Oh, I see, you thought I was going to throw you out of the plane. No, Pet, I took hold of you so that I could anchor you while you close the door. Wouldn't want the wind to suck you out, would we?"
    "I have a better idea," said Petra. "I'll be the anchor, you close the door."
    "But the anchor has to be the stronger, heavier one," said Achilles. "And that's me."
    "Let's just leave it open, then," said Petra.
    "Can't fly all the way to Kabul with the door open."
    What did it mean, his telling her their destination? Did it mean that he trusted her a little? Or that it didn't matter what she knew, since he had decided she was going to die?
    Then it occurred to her that if he wanted her dead, she would die. It was that simple. So why worry about it? If he wanted to kill her by pushing her out the door, how was that different from a bullet in the brain? Dead was dead. And if he didn't plan to kill her, the door needed to be closed, and having him serve as anchor was the secondbest plan.
    "Isn't there somebody in the crew who can do this?" she asked.
    "There's just the pilot," said Achilles. "Can you land a plane?"
    She shook her head.
    "So he stays in the cockpit, and we close the door."
    "I don't mean to be a nag," said Petra, "but opening the door was a really stupid thing to do."
    He grinned at her.
    Holding tight to his wrist, she slid along the wall toward the door. It was only partially open, the kind of door that worked by sliding up. So she didn't have to reach very far out of the plane. Still, the cold wind snatched at her arm and made it very hard to get a grip on the door handle to pull it down into place. And even when she got it down into position, she simply didn't have the strength to overcome the wind resistance and pull it snug.
    Achilles saw this, and now that the door wasn't open enough for anyone to fall out and the wind could no longer suck anybody out, he let go of her and of the bulkhead and joined her in pulling at the handle.
    If I push instead of pulling, thought Petra, the wind will help me, and maybe we'll both get sucked right out.
    Do it, she told herself. Do it. Kill him. Even if you die doing it, it's worth it. This is Hitler, Stalin, Genghis, Attila all rolled into one.
    But it might not work. He might not get sucked out. She might die alone, pointlessly. No, she would have to find a way to destroy him later, when she could be sure it would work.
    At another level, she knew that she simply wasn't ready to die. No matter how convenient it might