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towel. I held tight to it, hard as a dishrag on my breasts, and shook my head.
    “What’s this?” he whispered into my ear.
    “This is the unforgiving light of morning,” I whispered back. “Time to drop the illusion.”
    “What illusion?”
    “That anything can be okay,” I said, and kissed his cheek.
    “Let’s not do that yet,” he said, and wrapped his arms around me. Those thin, hairless arms. A boy’s arms. I told myself these things, but I felt safe and good. Pretty and clean. I put my face to his neck and smelled him: liquor and sharp shaving lotion, the kind that squirts out ice blue. When I opened my eyes again, I saw the red twirling circles of a police siren outside the window.
    Bang bang bang. The door rattled as if it could have easily broken down.
    “Camille Preaker. Chief Vickery. Open up if you’re in there.”
    We grabbed our scattered clothes, John’s eyes as startled as a bird’s. The sounds of belt buckles and shirt rustles that would give us away outside. Frantic, guilty noises. I threw the sheets back on the bed, ran fingers through my hair, and as John placed himself in an awkwardly casual standing position behind me, fingers hooked through his belt loops, I opened the door.
    Richard. Well-pressed white shirt, crisply striped tie, a smile that dropped as soon as he saw John. Vickery beside him, rubbing his mustache as if there were a rash beneath it, eyes flitting from me to John before he turned and stared at Richard head on.
    Richard said nothing, just glared at me, crossed his arms and inhaled deeply once. I’m sure the room smelled of sex.
    “Well, looks like you’re just fine,” he said. Forced a smirk. I knew it was forced because the skin above his collar was as red as an angry cartoon character’s. “How’re you, John? You good?”
    “I’m fine, thanks,” John said, and came to stand at my side.
    “Miss Preaker, your mother called us a few hours ago when you failed to come home,” mumbled Vickery. “Said you’d been a bit sick, taken a tumble, something like ’at. She was real worried. Real worried. Plus with all this ugliness going on, you can’t be too careful. I suppose she’ll be glad to hear you’re…here.”
    The last part asked as a question I had no intention of answering. Richard I owed an explanation. Vickery no.
    “I can phone my mother myself, thanks. I appreciate you looking up on me.”
    Richard looked at his feet, bit his lip, the only time I’ve ever seen him abashed. My belly turned, oily and fearful. He exhaled once, a long hard gust, put his hand on his hips, stared at me, then at John. Kids caught misbehaving.
    “C’mon John, we’ll take you home,” Richard said.
    “Camille can take me, but thanks, Detective Willis.”
    “You of age, son?” Vickery asked.
    “He’s eighteen,” Richard said.
    “Well fine then, you two have a real nice day,” Vickery said, hissed a laugh in Richard’s direction, and muttered “already had a nice night,” under his breath.
    “I’ll phone you later, Richard,” I said.
    He raised a hand, flicked it at me as he turned back to the car.

    J ohn and I were mostly silent on the ride to his parents’, where he was going to try to sleep in the basement rec room for a bit. He hummed a snatch of some old ’50s bebop and tapped his fingernails on the door handle.
    “How bad do you think that was?” he finally asked.
    “For you, maybe not bad. Shows you’re a good American boy with healthy interest in women and casual sex.”
    “That wasn’t casual. I don’t feel casual about that at all. Do you?”
    “No. That was the wrong word. That was just the opposite,” I said. “But I’m more than a decade older than you, and I’m covering the crime that…it’s a conflict of interest. Better reporters have been fired for such a thing.” I was aware of the morning sunlight on my face, the wrinkles at the edges of my eyes, the age that hung on me. John’s face, despite a night of drinking and very little sleep, was like a petal.
    “Last night. You saved me. That saved me. If you hadn’t stayed with me, I would have done something bad. I know it, Camille.”
    “You made me feel very safe, too,” I said, and meant it, but the words came out in the disingenuous singsong of my mother.

    I dropped John off a block from his parents’ house, his kiss landing on my jaw as I jerked away at the last second. No one can prove anything happened, I thought at that moment.
    Drove back to Main