The Cold, Cold Ground

? You’re awake and wondering about me. Have the peelers got your message? Do they know what’s in store?
    We know.
    I know.
    I walked back to the apartment. I put the key in the lock.
    Quiet.
    The hall.
    Quiet.
    The bedroom.
    Quiet.
    “Where have you be—”
    “Sssshhh. Sleep.”
    “Sleep?”
    “Yes. Sleep.”
    And I got in beside her and we moved from one dream to another …

4: BONEYBEFORE
    I could smell coffee. She cleared her throat. I opened my eyes and looked at her. She was wearing my shirt, no kacks and she was holding a mug of Nescafé.
    She smiled but she didn’t look happy.
    I didn’t envy her her task today up at that awful morgue in Belfast.
    “Thanks,” I said and took the cup.
    “I didn’t know how you liked it so I just made it with milk and two sugars.”
    “That’s fine.”
    “You want some breakfast?”
    “If you’re having something.”
    “It’s already made, come and join me in the living room.”
    “Ok,” I said.
    She took off my shirt and laid it on the bed.
    “And get a move on,” she said.
    I admired her small breasts, trim, sexy body and pert arse as she walked away. She was like one of the girls you’d meet out in the country somewhere, you on a bike covered in mud spattle and she trotting past on some massive chestnut hunter. I liked that image. And I liked her. But it was evident that I was being given the bum’s rush.
    She wanted me to dress, eat and go.
    I pulled on me kit and shoes and followed her into the lounge.
    The place looked good in daylight. Very chic: blurry black and white photographs, pastel shades, German furniture and a kitsch kitty cat lamp (at least I hoped it was kitsch). The view through the big windows was of the harbour and the twelfth-century castle.
    She’d made porridge and an Ulster fry.
    My porridge came in a packet, hers had been slow cooked for twenty minutes with full cream milk, salt and brown sugar and was so thick that you could stand a spoon vertical in it.
    It was damn good.
    The fry was fine too, sizzling: sausage, egg, bacon, soda bread and potato bread. After this I’d last until dinner or my coronary – whichever came first.
    A doctor, a looker and a cook.
    She was a catch.
    “So what’s your home number?” I asked as I started on the last egg.
    “Uh, you won’t need it. We won’t be doing this again.”
    I looked for the kid, but there was no kid. She was serious.
    “What? Why?”
    “It was a momentary … weakness. I am not the kind of girl who bangs on the first date.”
    She was looking at me, her eyes wide and her face frowning. It was, no doubt, an expression she had practised in the mirror for telling patients bad news.
    “Neither am I,” I said.
    She gave me a thin smile. “I’m no slag. And it’s not just that.”
    “Something about me?” I wondered aloud.
    “No. Not you. Timing. I just got out of a long-term relationship. It wouldn’t be fair on you.”
    “I’d be the rebound guy?”
    “Exactly.”
    “I’ll take my chances.”
    She shook her head. “No. No. It’s all too soon. You understand, right? And we’ll be friends. I’m sure I’ll see you around, on a, uh, professional basis.”
    She put out her hand again for that odd formal handshake.
    I was having none of it.
    I pulled her close and she was having none of that.
    “No,” she said and shoved .
    She got up from the table, went to the radio and turned it on. Juice Newton was singing “Queen of Hearts”. It was a song I had grown to hate over the previous week.
    I regarded her with amazement and she returned my gaze with a fixed, impatient look of her own.
    “I suppose you think you’re better than me,” I very nearly said but didn’t.
    I finished my tea in a gulp.
    “All right. I imagine I’ll see you around then, Dr Cathcart,” I said, pushing the chair back.
    “Yes,” she said, not looking at me now.
    I got my coat, opened the front door and was down the steps and half way to the cop shop before I regretted the abruptness of my departure.
    It was petulant. It lacked finesse. Cary Grant would have made a joke or something.
    Annoyance changed into self-pity. The first woman I’d liked since Adele and somehow I had ballsed it all up. “Eejit,” I muttered to myself.
    I walked along the Scotch Quarter past a bunch of confused looking school kids with no school to go to and nothing else to do but make trouble or sniff glue.
    I went into Sandy McGowan’s newsagent next to the Royal Oak. I looked at the headlines