The Consequences of That Night

bed?
    Emma had been shocked when Cesare had told her in London that he hadn’t slept with another woman since their first night together. But as amazing as that was, she knew it wouldn’t last. It couldn’t. Cesare wasn’t the kind of man to tolerate an empty bed for the rest of his life. There were too many women in the world who would eagerly join him, married or no.
    Cesare didn’t equate sex with love the way she did, either. To Cesare, satisfying a sexual need was no different than satiating a hunger for food or sleep. It was just physical. Not emotional.
    Lovers are a dime a dozen to me.
    Emma swallowed, crossing her arms over her body.
    She could ask him outright if he planned to be unfaithful to her. But she was afraid, because if she asked, he would tell her the truth. And she didn’t think her heart could take it.
    No, it was easier to live in denial, in the pretty lie of marriage vows, and to try not to think about the ugly truth beneath....
    “There you are, cara. ”
    Whirling around to see Cesare in the doorway, she put a finger to her lips. “Shh. Sam is finally asleep,” she whispered, barely loud enough to hear. “I just got him down.”
    His handsome face looked relieved. “Grazie a dio.” He silently backed away, and she followed him out of the room. She closed the door behind them, and they both exhaled.
    “What made him sleep? Was it your walk?”
    “No,” she said softly. “I think it was coming home.”
    For a long moment, they looked at each other.
    “I’m glad you are thinking of it as home, cara. ” He smiled. “And starting tomorrow, we will be husband and wife.”
    A lump rose in her throat. She tried to stay silent, but her fear came out in blurted words. “Are you still sure it’s what you want?”
    The smile slid from his face. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
    “A lifetime without love—without...” She gulped, then forced herself to meet his gaze. “Without sex...”
    “The decision has already been made.” His voice had turned cold. “I’ve made you dinner. Come.”
    She was very hungry after her walk, but she hesitated, glancing behind her. “I can’t just leave Sam up here. Not until the baby monitor arrives. This house is so big and the old walls are thick. Downstairs in the dining room, we’d never hear him if he cried....”
    “I thought you might feel that way.” Cesare tilted his head, looking suddenly pleased with himself. “We’re not going far.”
    Placing his hand in the small of her back, he pushed her gently down the hall. A sizzle of electricity went up her body at even that courteous, commanding touch. Biting her lip, she allowed him to lead her...
    ...a mere ten steps, to his own bedroom next door.
    “We’re having dinner in your room?” she said, a little sheepish that he’d guessed her feelings about the baby so well.
    He nodded. “A private dinner for two on my balcony.”
    “Lovely,” she said. “Um...any particular reason?”
    “I just thought before our guests arrive in the morning, it would be nice to have a quiet dinner. To talk.”
    “Oh.” That sounded ominous. The last time they’d had a private dinner and a talk she’d walked out engaged, with her whole life changed forever. She was afraid what might come out of it this time. The questions she might ask. The answers he might give. All words that could never be unheard or forgotten.
    She licked her lips and tried to smile as she repeated, “Lovely.”
    Cesare led her into his enormous en suite bedroom, with a fireplace and a huge bed that she tried not to look at as they walked past it. He led her out to the balcony, where she found a charming table for two, lit by candlelight, and two silver plates covered by lids. Beyond the table, the dark sweep of Lake Como trailed moonlight in a pattern of gold.
    Emma looked at Cesare, noticing for the first time how he had carefully dressed in a crisp black shirt and pants. With his dark hair, black eyes and chiseled jawline, he looked devastatingly handsome. He was the man every woman wanted. While she... Well.
    Emma touched her hair, which was tumbling over her shoulders, messy from Sam tugging on it, and from the wind of their walk. She looked down at her simple pink blouse and slim-fit jeans. “I’m not dressed for this.” For all she knew, she might have baby spit-up on her shoulder. She tried to look, but she couldn’t see. “Um. I should go change...”
    “Go back to your bedroom and risk waking up our son?