The Corrections

turned to Chip for reassurance, but Chip himself was staring at the girl.
    “Chip!” he said.
    Chip took his eyes off her. “Yeah, Dad?”
    Well, now that he’d attracted Chip’s attention, he had to say something, and what he said was this: “Tell your mother not to worry about the mess down there. I’ll take care of all that.”
    “OK. I’ll tell her.”
    The girl’s clever fingers and soft face were all around his head. She asked him to make a fist, she pinched him andprodded him. She was talking like the television in somebody else’s room.
    “Dad?” Chip said.
    “I didn’t hear.”
    “Dr. Schulman wants to know if you’d prefer ‘Alfred’ or ‘Mr. Lambert.’ What would you rather she called you?”
    He grinned painfully. “I’m not following.”
    “I think he prefers ‘Mr. Lambert,’” Chip said.
    “Mr. Lambert,” said the little girl, “can you tell me where we are?”
    He turned again to Chip, whose expression was expectant but unhelpful. He pointed toward the window. “That’s Illinois in that direction,” he said to his son and to the girl. Both were listening with great interest now, and he felt he should say more. “There’s a window,” he said, “which … if you get it open … would be what I want. I couldn’t get the belt undone. And then.”
    He was failing and he knew it.
    The little girl looked down on him kindly. “Can you tell me who our President is?”
    He grinned, it was an easy one.
    “Well,” he said. “She’s got so much stuff down there. I doubt she’d even notice. We ought to pitch the whole lot of it.”
    The little girl nodded as if this were a reasonable answer. Then she held up both her hands. She was pretty like Enid, but Enid had a wedding ring, Enid didn’t wear glasses, Enid had lately gotten older, and he probably would have recognized Enid, although, being far more familiar to him than Chip, she was that much harder to see.
    “How many fingers am I holding up?” the girl asked him.
    He considered her fingers. As far as he could tell, the message they were sending was Relax. Unclench. Take it easy.
    With a smile he let his bladder empty.
    “Mr. Lambert? How many fingers am I holding up?”
    The fingers were there. It was a beautiful thing. The relief of irresponsibility. The less he knew, the happier he was. To know nothing at all would be heaven.
    “Dad?”
    “I should know that,” he said. “Can you believe I’d forget a thing like that?”
    The little girl and Chip exchanged a look and then went out into the corridor.
    He’d enjoyed unclenching, but after a minute or two he felt clammy. He needed to change his clothes now and he couldn’t. He sat in his mess as it chilled.
    “Chip?” he said.
    A stillness had fallen on the cellblock. He couldn’t rely on Chip, he was always disappearing. He couldn’t rely on anybody but himself. With no plan in his head and no power in his hands he attempted to loosen the belt so he could take his pants off and dry himself. But the belt was as maddening as ever. Twenty times he ran his hands along its length and twenty times he failed to find a buckle. He was like a person of two dimensions seeking freedom in a third. He could search for all eternity and never find the goddamned buckle.
    “Chip!” he called, but not loudly, because the black bastard was lurking out there, and she would punish him severely. “Chip, come and help me.”
    He would have liked to remove his legs entirely. They were weak and restless and wet and trapped. He kicked a little and rocked in his unrocking chair. His hands were in a tumult. The less he could do about his legs, the more he swung his arms. The bastards had him now, he’d been betrayed, and he began to cry. If only he’d known! If only he’d known, he could have taken steps, he’d had the gun, he’d had the bottomless cold ocean, if only he’d known.
    He swatted a pitcher of water against the wall, and finally somebody came running.
    “Dad, Dad, Dad. What’s wrong?”
    Alfred looked up at his son and into his eyes. He opened his mouth, but the only word he could produce was “I—”
    I—
    I have made mistakes—
    I am alone—
    I am wet—
    I want to die—
    I am sorry—
    I did my best—
    I love my children—
    I need your help—
    I want to die—
    “I can’t be here,” he said.
    Chip crouched on the floor by the chair. “Listen,” he said. “You have to stay here another week so they can monitor you. We need to find out