Unravel Me: The Juliette Chronicles Book 2

our weight and the glass walls are rattling and the machines are shifting out of place and the water is sloshing against its container and the people—
    The people.
    The people are frozen in terror and horror and the fear in their expressions rips me apart.
    I fall backward, cradling my right fist to my chest and try to remind myself I am not a monster, I do not have to be a monster, I do not want to hurt people I do not want to hurt people I do not want to hurt people
    and it’s not working.
    Because it’s all a lie.
    Because this was me, trying to help.
    I look around.
    At the ground.
    At what I’ve done.
    And I understand, for the first time, that I have the power to destroy everything.

EIGHT
    Castle is limp.
    His jaw is unhinged. His arms are slack at his sides, his eyes wide with worry and wonder and a sliver of intimidation and though he moves his lips he can’t seem to make a sound.
    I feel like now might be a good time to jump off a cliff.
    Kenji touches my arm and I turn to face him only to realize I’m petrified. I’m always waiting for him and Adam and Castle to realize that being kind to me is a mistake, that it’ll end badly, that I’m not worth it, that I’m nothing more than a tool, a weapon, a closet murderer.
    But he takes my right fist in his hand so gently. Takes care not to touch my skin as he slips off the now-tattered leather glove and sucks in his breath at the sight of my knuckles. The skin is torn and blood is everywhere and I can’t move my fingers.
    I realize I am in agony .
    I blink and stars explode and a new torture rages through my limbs in such a hurry I can no longer speak.
    I gasp
    and
    the
    world
    d  i  s  a  p  p  e  a  r  s

NINE
    My mouth tastes like death.
    I manage to pry my eyes open and immediately feel the wrath of hell ripping through my right arm. My hand has been bandaged in so many layers of gauze it’s rendered my 5 fingers immobile and I find I’m grateful for it. I’m so exhausted I don’t have the energy to cry.
    I blink.
    Try to look around but my neck is too stiff.
    Fingers brush my shoulder and I discover myself wanting to exhale. I blink again. Once more. A girl’s face blurs in and out of focus. I turn my head to get a better view and blink blink blink some more.
    “How’re you feeling?” she whispers.
    “I’m okay,” I say to the blur, but I think I’m lying. “Who are you?”
    “It’s me,” she says. Even without seeing her clearly I can hear the kindness in her voice. “Sonya.”
    Of course.
    Sara is probably here, too. I must be in the medical wing.
    “What happened?” I ask. “How long have I been out?”
    She doesn’t answer and I wonder if she didn’t hear me.
    “Sonya?” I try to meet her eyes. “How long have I been sleeping?”
    “You’ve been really sick,” she says. “Your body needed time—”
    “How long?” My voice drops to a whisper.
    “Three days.”
    I sit straight up and know I’m going to be sick.
    Luckily, Sonya’s had the foresight to anticipate my needs. A bucket appears just in time for me to empty the meager contents of my stomach into it and then I’m dry-heaving into what is not my suit but some kind of hospital gown and someone is wiping a hot, damp cloth across my face.
    Sonya and Sara are hovering over me, the hot cloths in their hands, wiping down my bare limbs, making soothing sounds and telling me I’m going to be fine, I just need to rest, I’m finally awake long enough to eat something, I shouldn’t be worried because there’s nothing to worry about and they’re going to take care of me.
    But then I look more closely.
    I notice their hands, so carefully sheathed in latex gloves; I notice the IV stuck in my arm; I notice the urgent but cautious way they approach me and then I realize the problem.
    The healers can’t touch me.

TEN
    They’ve never had to deal with a problem like me before.
    Injuries are always treated by the healers. They can set broken bones and repair bullet wounds and revive collapsed lungs and mend even the worst kinds of cuts—I know this because Adam had to be carried into Omega Point on a stretcher when we arrived. He’d suffered at the hands of Warner and his men after we escaped the military base and I thought his body would be scarred forever. But he’s perfect. Brand-new. It took all of 1 day to put him back together; it was like magic.
    But there are no magic medicines for me.
    No miracles.
    Sonya and Sara explain that I