Winter Moon

began to worry h drug dealing and violence surrounding A les schools He became convinced they ing to be killed unless they could find a way, in spite of his financial problems to pay private sc h t such a once-safe place as a classr d ngerous as a battlefield led him in f I t the conclusion that nowhere was son. If Toby could be killed in school, why not on his t playing in his Own front yard? Ia overly protective parent, which he had never been before, reluctant to let the boy out of his sight. h fifth of August, with his return to d way and the restoration of a mřre t hand he shouldhave experienced p d but the Opposite was the case. ting to the division for reassignme eat even though he was at least a ving off a desk job and back on the li d he had concealed his fears and P sions from everyone That night he learned differently In bed, after he turned off the lamp, he worked up the courage to say in the darkness what he would have been embarrassed to say in the light: "I'm not going back on the street."
        "I know," Heather said from her side of the bed. "I don't mean not just right away. I mean never."
        "I know, baby," she said tenderly, and reached out to find and hold his hand. "Is it that obvious?"
        "It's been a bad couple of weeks."
        "I'm sorry."
        "You had to go through it."
        "I thought I'd be on the street until I retired. It's all I ever wanted to do."
        "Things change," she said. "I can't risk it now. I've lost my confidence."
        "You'll get it back."
        "Maybe."
        "You will," she insisted. "But you still won't go back on the street..You can't. You've done your part, you've pushed your luck as far as any cop could be expected to push it. Let someone else save the world."
        "I feel…"
        "I know."
        "… empty…"
        "It'll get better. Everything does."
        "… like a sorry-ass quitter."
        "You're no quitter." She slid against his side and put her hand on his chest. "You're a good man and you're brave-too damn brave, as far as I'm concerned. If you hadn't decided to get off the street, I'd have decided it for you. One way or another, I'd have made you do it, because the odds are, next time, I'll be Alma Bryson and your partner's wife will be coming to sit at my side, hold my hand. I'll be damned to hell before I'll let that happen. You've had two partners shot down beside you in one year, and there's been seven cops killed here since January. Seven. I'm not going to lose you, Jack." He put his arm around her, held her close, profoundly grateful to have found her in a hard world where so much seemed to depend on random chance. For a while he couldn't speak, his voice would have been too thick with emotion. At last he said, "So I guess from here on out, I'll park my butt in a chair and be a desk jockey of one kind or another."
        "I'll buy you a whole case of hemorrhoid cream"
        "I'll have to get a coffee mug with my name on It."
        "And a supply of notepads that say From the Desk of Jack Mcgarvey."
        " He said, "It's going to mean a salary cut. Won't pay as much as being on the street."
        "We'll be all right."
        "Will we? I'm not so sure. It's going to be tight." She said,
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        Better legs than Bill Gates."
        And that night, in the darkness of their bedroom, it did seem that finding security and happiness again in the City of Angels might be possible, after all.
        During the next ten days, however, they were confronted by a series of reality checks that made it impossible to sustain the old L.A..fantasy.
        Yet another city budget shortfall was rectified in part by reducing the compensation of street cops by five percent and that of the deskbound in the department by twelve percent, a job that already paid less than Jack's previous position now paid markedly less. A day later, government statistics showed the economy slipping again, and a new client, on the verge of signing a contract with Mcgarvey Associates, was so unnerved by those numbers that he decided against investing in new computer programs for a few months. Inflation was up.
        Taxes were way up. The debt-strapped utility company was granted a rate increase to prevent bankruptcy, which meant electricity rates were going to