Xenocide (Ender Wiggins Saga)

would mean that Planter would immediately get sick and then eventually die. What having the descolada did to Quim, lacking it will do to Planter."
    "You can't mean to let him do it," said Valentine. "It won't prove anything. He might lose his mind because of illness. Fever makes people delirious."
    "What else can we do?" asked Planter. "Wait until Ela finds a way to tame the virus, and only then find out that without it in its intelligent, virulent form, we are not pequeninos at all, but merely piggies? That we were only given the power of speech by the virus within us, and that when it was controlled, we lost everything and became nothing more than brothertrees? Do we find that out when you loose the virus-killer?"
    "But it's not a serious experiment with a control--"
    "It's a serious experiment, all right," said Ender. "The kind of experiment you perform when you don't give a damn about getting funding, you just need results and you need them now. The kind of experiment you perform when you have no idea what the results will be or even if you'll know how to interpret them, but there are a bunch of crazy pequeninos planning to get in starships and spread a planet-killing disease all over the galaxy so you've got to do something."
    "It's the kind of experiment you perform," said Planter, "when you need a hero."
    "When we need a hero?" asked Ender. "Or when you need to be a hero?"
    "I wouldn't talk if I were you," said Valentine dryly. "You've done a few stints as a hero yourself over the centuries."
    "It may not be necessary anyway," said Ela. "Quara knows a lot more about the descolada than she's telling. She may already know whether the intelligent adaptability of the descolada can be separated from its life-sustaining functions. If we could make a virus like that, we could test the effect of the descolada on pequenino intelligence without threatening the life of the subject."
    "The trouble is," said Valentine, "Quara isn't any more likely to believe our story that the descolada is an artifact created by another species than Qing-jao was able to believe that the voice of her gods was just a genetically-caused obsessive-compulsive disorder."
    "I'll do it," said Planter. "I will begin immediately because we have no time. Put me in a sterile environment tomorrow, and then kill all the descolada in my body using the chemicals you've got hidden away. The ones you mean to use on humans when the descolada adapts to the current suppressant you're using."
    "You realize that it may be wasted," said Ela.
    "Then it would truly be a sacrifice," said Planter.
    "If you start to lose your mind in a way that clearly isn't related to your body's illness," said Ela, "we'll stop the experiment because we'll have the answer."
    "Maybe," said Planter.
    "You might well recover at that point."
    "I don't care whether I recover," said Planter.
    "We'll also stop it," said Ender, "if you start to lose your mind in a way that is related to your body's illness, because then we'll know that the experiment is useless and we wouldn't learn anything from it anyway."
    "Then if I'm a coward, all I have to do is pretend to be mentally failing and my life will be saved," said Planter. "No, I forbid you to stop the experiment, no matter what. And if I keep my mental functions, you must let me continue to the end, to the death, because only if I keep my mind to the end will we know that our soul is not just an artifact of the descolada. Promise me!"
    "Is this science or a suicide pact?" asked Ender. "Are you so despondent over discovering the probable role of the descolada in pequenino history that you simply want to die?"
    Planter rushed to Ender, climbed his body, and pressed his nose against Ender's. "You liar!" he shouted.
    "I just asked a question," whispered Ender.
    "I want to be free!" shouted Planter. "I want the descolada out of my body and I never want it to come back! I want to use this to help free all the piggies so that we can be pequeninos in fact and not in name!"
    Gently Ender pried him back. His nose ached from the violence of Planter's pressing.
    "I want to make a sacrifice that proves that I'm free," said Planter, "not just acting out my genes. Not just trying for the third life."
    "Even the martyrs of Christianity and Islam were willing to accept rewards in heaven for their sacrifice," said Valentine.
    "Then they were all selfish pigs," said Planter. "That's what you say about pigs, isn't it? In Stark, in your common speech? Selfish