A Maidens Grave

her from the floor, from the metal chains and meat hooks, from the cascade of slick water, from the damp walls spattered with mold and old, old blood.
    I go because I’m afraid.
    I go because he and I just killed a man together.
    I go because I can understand him . . . .
    Brutus pulled her close. “You think you’re better’n me, right? You think you’re a good person.” She could tell he was whispering. People’s faces change when they whisper. They look like they’re telling you absolute truths but really they’re just making the lie more convincing.
    “ Why’re we selling it? Honey, you know what the doctor said. It’s your ears. You can still hear now some, sure, but that’ll go, remember what they said. You don’t really want to start something you’ll have to give up in a few years. We’re doing it for you. ”
    “See, I’m going to cut her in about three minutes, that chopper don’t show up. I’d kill her I had more hostages. But I can’t afford to lose another one. Least not yet.”
    Emily stood, hands still clasped together, staring out at the window, shaking as she sobbed.
    “See”—Brutus closed his fiercely strong fingers around Melanie’s arm—“if you were a good person, you were really good, you’d say, ‘Take me, not her.’ ”
    Stop it!
    He slapped her. “No, keep your eyes open. So if you’renot like totally good you must have some bad inside you. Somewhere. To let this little one get cut instead of you. It’s not like you’d die. I ain’t gonna kill her. Just a little pain. Make sure those assholes out . . . know I mean business. You won’t put up with a little pain for your friend, huh? You . . . bad. Just like me?”
    She shook her head.
    His head swiveled. Stoat’s too. She guessed the phone was ringing.
    “Don’t answer it,” he said to Stoat. “Too much talking. I’m sick and tired . . . .” He thumbed the blade. Melanie was frozen. “You? You for her?” He moved the blade of the knife one way then the other. Figure eights.
    What would Susan have done?
    Melanie hesitated though she knew the answer clearly. Finally she nodded.
    “Yeah,” he said, eyebrows raised. “You mean it?”
    “Two minutes,” Stoat called.
    Melanie nodded then embraced sobbing Emily, lowered her head to the girl’s cheek, directed her gently away from the window.
    Handy leaned close, his head inches from Melanie’s, his nose beside her ear. She couldn’t hear his breath, of course, but she had the impression he was inhaling something—the scent of her fear. Her eyes were fixed on the knife. Which hovered over her skin: her cheek, her nose, then her lips, her throat. She felt it caress a breast and slide down her belly.
    She felt the vibration of his voice, turned to look at his lips. “ . . . should I cut you? Your tit? No loss there—you don’t have no boyfriend to feel you up, do you? Your ear? Hey, that wouldn’t matter either . . . . You see that flick, Reservoir Dogs ?”
    The blade lifted, slipped over her cheek. “How ’bout your eye? Deaf and blind. You’d be a real freak then.”
    Finally she could take it no longer and she closed her eyes. She tried to think of the tune of “Amazing Grace” but it was nowhere in her memory.
    A Maiden’s Grave  . . .
    Nothing, nothing, all silence. Music can be vibrations or sound, but not both.
    And for me, neither.
    Well, she thought, do whatever the fuck you’re going to do and get it over with.
    But then the hands pushed her brutally away and she opened her eyes, staggering across the floor. Brutus was laughing. She understood that this little sacrifice scene had been just a game. He’d been playing with her once again. He said, “Naw, naw, I’ve got other plans for you, little mouse. You’re a present for my Pris.”
    He handed her off to Stoat, who held her firmly. She struggled but he gripped her like a vise. Brutus pulled Emily back into the window. The girl’s eyes met Melanie’s momentarily, and Emily pushed her hands together, praying, crying.
    Brutus caught Emily’s head in the crook of his left arm and lifted the tip of the knife to her eyes.
    Melanie struggled futilely against Stoat’s iron grip.
    Brutus looked at his watch. “Time.”
    Emily sobbed; her joined fingers twitched as they uttered fervent prayers.
    Brutus tightened his grip on Emily’s head. He drew back a few inches with the knife, aimed right for the center of her closed right eye.
    Stoat looked