Brother Cadfael 13: The Rose Rent

lightness that did not quite conceal her weariness. Abbot Radulfus had got his breath back, and started forward to meet her as she came towards him, bent the knee to him deeply, and stooped to kiss the hand he extended to her.
    "Daughter," said Radulfus, shaken and glad, "how I rejoice to see you restored here, whole and well. We have been in great trouble for you."
    "So I have learned, Father," she said in a low voice, "and I take it to my blame. God knows it was never my wish that anyone should be in distress of mind for me, and I am sorry to have put you and the lord sheriff and so many good men to such a trouble and expense on my behalf. I will make amends as best I may."
    "Oh, child, pains spent in goodwill require no payment. If you are come back to your place safe and well, what else matters? But how does this come about? Where have you been all this time?"
    "Father," she said, drawing breath in a moment's hesitation, "you see no harm has come to me. It was rather I who fled from a burden that had become too hard to bear alone. That I never said word to any you must excuse, but my need, my compulsion, was sudden and urgent. I needed a place of quietness and peace, and a time for thought, all that Sister Magdalen once promised me if ever I needed to shut out the world for a little while, until my heart could stand it. I fled to her, and she has not failed me."
    "And you are just come from Godric's Ford?" said Radulfus, marvelling. "All this while that you have been thought lost, you were safe and quiet there? Well, I thank God for it! And no news of this turmoil we were in here ever came to your ears there at the Ford?"
    "Never a word, Father Abbot," said Sister Magdalen promptly. She had lighted down and approached without haste, smoothing the skirt of her habit from the creases of riding with plump, shapely, ageing hands. "We live out of the world there, and seldom feel the want of it. News is slow to reach us. Since I was last here, not a soul has come our way from Shrewsbury until late last night, when a man from the Foregate happened by. So here I have brought Judith home, to put an end to all this doubt, and set all minds at rest."
    "As hers, I hope," said the abbot, closely studying the pale but calm face, "is now at rest, after those stresses that drove her into hiding. Three days is not long, to bring about the healing of a heart."
    She looked up steadily into his face with her wide grey eyes, and very faintly smiled. "I thank you, Father, and I thank God, I have regained my courage."
    "I am well sure," said the abbot warmly, "that you could not have placed yourself in better hands, and I, too, thank God that all our fears for you can be so happily put away."
    In the brief, profound silence the long file of brothers, halted perforce at the abbot's back, shifted and craned and peered to get a good look at this woman who had been sought as lost, and even whispered about with sly undertones of scandal, and now returned immaculate in the blameless company of the sub-prioress of a Benedictine cell, effectively silencing comment, if not speculation, and confronting the world with unassailable composure and dignity. Even Prior Robert had so far forgotten himself as to stand and stare, instead of waving the brothers authoritatively away through the cloister to their proper duties.
    "Will you not have your beasts cared for here," the abbot invited, "and take some rest and refreshment? And I will send at once to the castle and let the lord sheriff know that you are back with us safe and sound. For you should see him as soon as possible, and explain your absence to him as you have here to me."
    "So I intend, Father," said Judith, "but I must go home. My aunt and cousin and all my people will still be fretting for me, I must go at once and show myself, and put an end to their anxiety. I'll send to the castle immediately to let Hugh Beringar know, and he may come to me or send for me to come to him, as soon as he pleases. But we could not pass by into the town without first coming to inform you."
    "That was considerate, and I am grateful. But, Sister, I trust you will be my guest while you are here?"
    "Today, I think," said Sister Magdalen, "I must go with Judith and see her safely restored to her family, and be her advocate with the sheriff, should she need one. Authority may be less indulgent over time and labour wasted than you are, Father. I shall stay with her at least overnight. But tomorrow I hope to have