Dead Until Dark

Maudette, naked and begging. A woman I’d never seen, her bare back to me, bruises and welts covering it. Then my grandmother—my grandmother—in our familiar kitchen, angry and fighting for her life.
    I was paralyzed by the shock of it, the horror of it. Whose thoughts were these? I had an image of Arlene’s kids, playing on my living room floor; I saw myself, and I didn’t look like the person I saw in my own mirror. I had huge holes in my neck, and I was lewd; I had a knowing leer on my face, and I patted the inside of my thigh suggestively.
    I was in the mind of Rene Lenier. This was how Rene saw me.
    Rene was mad.
    Now I knew why I’d never been able to read his thoughts explicitly; he kept them in a secret hole, a place in his mind he kept hidden and separate from his conscious self.
    He was seeing an outline behind a tree now and wondering if it looked like the outline of a woman.
    He was seeing me.
    I bolted and ran west toward the cemetery. I couldn’t listen to his head anymore, because my own head was focused so fixedly on running, dodging the obstacles of trees, bushes, fallen limbs, a little gully where rain had collected. My strong legs pumped, my arms swung, and my breath sounded like the wheezing of a bagpipe.
    I broke from the woods and was in the cemetery. The oldest portion of the graveyard was farther north toward Bill’s house, and it had the best places of concealment. I bounded over headstones, the modern kind, set almost flush with the ground, no good for hiding. I leaped over Gran’s grave, the earth still raw, no stone yet. Her killer followed me. I turned to look, to see how close he was, like a fool, and in the moonlight I saw Rene’s rough head of hair clearly as he gained on me.
    I ran down into the gentle bowl the cemetery formed, then began sprinting up the other side. When I thought there were enough large headstones and statues between me and Rene, I dodged behind a tall granite column topped with a cross. I remained standing, flattening myself against the cold hardness of the stone. I clamped a hand across my own mouth to silence my sobbing effort to get air in my lungs. I made myself calm enough to try to listen to Rene; but his thoughts were not even coherent enough to decipher, except the rage he felt. Then a clear concept presented itself.
    “Your sister,” I yelled. “Is Cindy still alive, Rene?”
    “Bitch!” he screamed, and I knew in that second that the first woman to die had been Rene’s sister, the one who liked vampires, the one he was supposedly still visiting from time to time, according to Arlene. Rene had killed Cindy, his waitress sister, while she was still wearing her pink and white hospital cafeteria uniform. He’d strangled her with her apron strings. And he’d had sex with her, after she was dead. She’d sunk so low, she wouldn’t mind her own brother, he’d thought, as much as he was capable of thinking. Anyone who’d let a vampire do that deserved to die. And he’d hidden her body from shame. The others weren’t his flesh and blood; it had been all right to let them lie.
    I’d gotten sucked down into Rene’s sick interior like a twig dragged down by a whirlpool, and it made me stagger. When I came back into my own head, he was on me. He hit me in the face as hard as he could, and he expected me to go down. The blow broke my nose and hurt so bad I almost blanked out, but I didn’t collapse. I hit him back. My lack of experience made my blow ineffectual. I just thumped him in the ribs, and he grunted, but in the next instant he retaliated.
    His fist broke my collarbone. But I didn’t fall.
    He hadn’t known how strong I was. In the moonlight, his face was shocked when I fought back, and I thanked the vampire blood I’d taken. I thought of my brave grandmother, and I launched myself at him, grabbing him by the ears and attempting to hit his head against the granite column. His hands shot up to grip my forearms, and he tried to pull me away so I’d loose my grip. Finally, he succeeded, but I could tell from his eyes he was surprised and more on guard. I tried to knee him, but he anticipated me, twisting just far enough away to dodge me. While I was off-balance, he pushed, and I hit the ground with a teeth-chattering thud.
    Then he was straddling me. But he’d dropped the cord in our struggle, and while he held my neck with one hand, he was groping with the other for his method of choice. My right arm was pinned, but my left was