Ender's Shadow

not a Napoleon, Nikolai. Maybe you're just an Eisenhower. Don't expect me to cry for you.”
      It was Nikolai's turn to laugh.
      "I'll miss you, Bean.”
      "Thanks for coming with me to face Achilles, Nikolai.”
      "Guy gave me nightmares.”
      "Me too.”
      "And I'm glad you brought the others along too. Itú, Ambul, Crazy Tom, I felt like we could've used six more, and Achilles was hanging from a wire. Guys like him, you can understand why they invented hanging.”
      "Someday," said Bean, "you're going to need me the way I needed you. And I'll be there.”
      "I'm sorry I didn't join your squad, Bean.”
      "You were right," said Bean. "I asked you because you were my friend, and I thought I needed a friend, but I should have been a friend, too, and seen what you needed.”
      "I'll never let you down again.”
      Bean threw his arms around Nikolai. Nikolai hugged him back.
      Bean remembered when he left Earth. Hugging Sister Carlotta. Analyzing. This is what she needs. It costs me nothing. Therefore I'll give her the hug.
      I'm not that kid anymore.
      Maybe because I was able to come through for Poke after all. Too late to help her, but I still got her killer to admit it. I still got him to pay something, even if it can never be enough.
      "Go meet your army, Nikolai," said Bean. "I've got a spaceship to catch.”
      He watched Nikolai go out the door and knew, with a sharp pang of regret, that he would never see his friend again.
     
     
     
        Dimak stood in Major Anderson's quarters.
      "Captain Dimak, I watched Colonel Graff indulge your constant complaints, your resistance to his orders, and I kept thinking, Dimak might be right, but I would never tolerate such lack of respect if I were in command. I'd throw him out on his ass and write 'insubordinate' in about forty places in his dossier. I thought I should tell you that before you make your complaint.”
      Dimak blinked.
      "Go ahead, I'm waiting.”
      "It isn't so much a complaint as a question.”
      "Then ask your question.”
      "I thought you were supposed to choose a team that was equally compatible with Ender and with Bean.”
      "The word equally was never used, as far as I can recall. But even if it was, did it occur to you that it might be impossible? I could have chosen forty brilliant children who would all have been proud and eager to serve under Andrew Wiggin. How many would be equally proud and eager to serve under Bean?”
      Dimak had no answer for that.
      "The way I analyze it, the soldiers I chose to send on this destroyer are the students who are emotionally closest and most responsive to Ender Wiggin, while also being among the dozen or so best commanders in the school. These soldiers also have no particular animosity toward Bean. So if they find him placed over them, they'll probably do their best for him.”
      "They'll never forgive him for not being Ender.”
      "I guess that will be Bean's challenge. Who else should I have sent? Nikolai is Bean's friend, but he'd be out of his depth. Someday he'll be ready for Tactical School, and then Command, but not yet. And what other friends does Bean have?”
      "He's won a lot of respect.”
      "And lost it again when he lost all five of his games.”
      "I've explained to you why he --”
      "Humanity doesn't need explanations, Captain Dimak! It needs winners! Ender Wiggin had the fire to win. Bean is capable of losing five in a row as if they didn't even matter.”
      "They didn't matter. He learned what he needed to learn from them.”
      "Captain Dimak, I can see that I'm falling into the same trap that Colonel Graff fell into. You have crossed the line from teaching into advocacy. I would dismiss you as Bean's teacher, were it not for the fact that the question is already moot. I'm sending the soldiers I decided on already. If Bean is really so brilliant, he'll figure out a way to work with them.”
      "Yes sir," said Dimak.
      "If it's any consolation, do remember that Crazy Tom was one of the ones Bean brought along to hear Achilles' confession. Crazy Tom went . That suggests that the better they know Bean, the more seriously they take him.”
      "Thank you, sir.”
      "Bean is no longer your responsibility, Captain Dimak. You did well with him. I salute you for it. Now ... get back to work.”
      Dimak saluted.
      Anderson saluted.
      Dimak left.
     
     
     
      On the destroyer Condor, the crew had no idea what to do with