Fifty Shades Trilogy 02 - Fifty Shades Darker

one. When I finish he exhales, and I lean forward and reward him with a kiss on his shoulder. Putting my arms around him, I dry his stomach. Our eyes meet once more in the mirror, his expression amused but wary, too.
    “Hold this.” I hand him a smaller face towel, and he gives me a bemused frown. “Remember in Georgia? You made me touch myself using your hands,” I add.
    His face darkens, but I ignore his reaction and put my arms around him. Gazing at us both in the mirror—his beauty, his nakedness, and me with my covered hair—we look almost Biblical, as if from an Old Testament baroque painting.  
    I reach for his hand, which he willingly entrusts to me, and guide it up to his chest to dry it, sweeping the towel slowly, awkwardly across his body. Once, twice—then again. He’s completely immobilized, rigid with tension, except for his eyes, which follow my hand clasped around his.  
    My subconscious looks on with approval, her normally pursed mouth smiling, and I am the supreme puppet master. His anxiety ripples off his back in waves, but he maintains eye contact, though his eyes are darker, more deadly. Showing their secrets maybe.  
    Is this a place I want to go? Do I want to confront his demons?
    “I think you’re dry now,” I whisper as I drop my hand, gazing into the gray depths of his eyes in the mirror. His breathing is accelerated, lips parted.
    “I need you, Anastasia,” he whispers.
    “I need you, too.” And as I say the words, I am struck how true they are. I cannot imagine being without Christian, ever.
    “Let me love you,” he says hoarsely.
    “Yes,” I answer, and turning, he hauls me into his arms, his lips seeking mine, beseeching me, worshipping me, cherishing me . . . loving me.

    He trails his fingers up and down my spine as we gaze at each other, basking in our postcoital bliss, replete. We lie together, me on my front hugging my pillow, he on his side, and I am treasuring his tender touch. I know that right now he needs to touch me. I am a balm for him, a source of solace, and how could I deny him that? I feel exactly the same about him.
    “So you can be gentle,” I murmur.
    “Hmm . . . so it would seem, Miss Steele.”
    I grin. “You weren’t particularly the first time we . . . um, did this.”
    “No?” He smirks. “When, I robbed you of your virtue.”
    “I don’t think you robbed me,” I mutter haughtily— Jeez, I’m not a helpless maiden . “I think my virtue was offered up pretty freely and willingly. I wanted you, too, and if I remember correctly, I rather enjoyed myself.” I smile shyly at him, biting my lip.
    “So did I if I recall, Miss Steele. We aim to please,” he drawls and his face softens, serious. “And it means you’re mine, completely.” All trace of humor has vanished as he gazes at me.
    “Yes, I am,” I murmur back at him. “I wanted to ask you something.”
    “Go ahead.”
    “Your biological father . . . do you know who he was?” This thought has been bugging me.
    His brow creases, and then he shakes his head. “I have no idea. Wasn’t the savage who was her pimp, which is good.”
    “How do you know?”
    “Something my dad . . . something Carrick said to me.”
    I gaze at my Fifty expectantly, waiting. He smirks at me.
    “So hungry for information, Anastasia,” he sighs, shaking his head. “The pimp discovered the crack whore’s body and phoned it in to the authorities. Took him four days to make the discovery though. He shut the door when he left . . . left me with her . . . her body.” His eyes cloud at the memory.  
    I inhale sharply. Poor baby boy—the horror is too grim to contemplate.  
    “Police interviewed him later. He denied flat out I was anything to do with him, and Carrick said he looked nothing like me.”
    “Do you remember what he did look like?”
    “Anastasia, this isn’t a part of my life I revisit very often. Yes, I remember what he looked like. I’ll never forget him.” Christian’s face darkens and hardens, becoming more angular, his eyes frosting with anger. “Can we talk about something else?”
    “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you.”
    He shakes his head. “It’s old news, Ana. Not something I want to think about.”
    “So what’s this surprise, then?” I need to change the subject before he goes all Fifty on me. His expression lightens immediately.
    “Can you face going out for some fresh air? I want to show you something.”
    “Of