Forever Odd
waitress was dead, but my friend with brittle bones had a chance to live. His survival must be my focus.
Addressing the spirit she could not see, Datura said, Your other sister, Nora, was burned over eighty percent of her body, but she survived. Three fingers on her left hand were burned completely away. So were her hair and many of her facial features, Maryann. One ear. Her lips. Her nose. Seared away, gone.
Grief so tortured the cocktail waitress that I could not bear to look at her, because I could do nothing to comfort her in the face of this vicious assault.
Breathing rapidly, shallowly, Datura had allowed the wolf in her bones to rise into her heart. Words were her teeth and cruelty her claws.
Your Nora has had thirty-six operations with more to come- skin grafts, facial reconstruction, painful and tedious. And still shes hideous.
Youre making this up, I interrupted.
Like hell I am. Shes hideous . She rarely goes out, and when she does, she wears a hat and ties a scarf across her sickening face to avoid frightening children.
Such aggressive gleefulness in the administration of emotional pain, such inexplicable bitterness revealed Daturas perfect face to be not just a contrast to her nature but in fact a mask. The longer she assailed the cocktail waitress, the less opaque the mask became, and you could begin to see the suggestion of an underlying malignancy so ugly that, were the mask to be stripped suddenly away, a face would be revealed that would make Lon Chaneys Phantom of the Opera look lamb-sweet, lamb-gentle.
You, Maryann, you got away easy by comparison. Your pain is over. You can go on from here any damn time you choose. But because your sisters were where they were, when they were, their suffering is going to continue for years and years, for all the rest of their miserable lives.
The intensity of misbegotten guilt that Datura strove to foster would keep this tortured spirit chained to these burned-out ruins, to this bleak plot of land, for another decade, or century. And for no purpose but to attempt to agitate the poor soul into a visible manifestation.
Do I piss you off, Maryann? Do you hate me for revealing the helpless, broken things your sisters have become?
To Datura, I said, This is disgusting, despicable, and it wont work. Its all for nothing.
I know what Im doing, baby. I always know exactly what Im doing.
She isnt like you, I persisted. She doesnt hate, so you cant enrage her.
Everyone hates, she said, and warned me off with a murderous look that dropped the temperature of my blood. Hate makes the world go round. Especially for girls like Maryann. Theyre the best of all haters.
What would you know about girls like her? I asked scornfully, angrily. And answered my question: Nothing. You know nothing about women like her.
Andre took one step away from his lantern, and Robert glowered at me.
Relentless, Datura said, Ive seen your picture in newspapers, Maryann. Oh, yes, I did my research before I came here. I know the faces of so many who died in this place, because if I meet them - when I meet them through my new boyfriend here, my little odd one-I want the encounters to be memorable .
The tall broad brick of a man with buzz-cut hair and deep-set bile-green eyes had appeared, but Id been so distracted by Daturas unconscionable badgering of the cocktail waitress that I had not been aware of this spirits belated arrival. I saw him now as he abruptly loomed closer to us.
Ive seen your picture, Maryann, Datura repeated. You were a pretty girl but not a beauty. Just pretty enough for men to use you, but not pretty enough to be able to use them to get what you wanted.
No more than ten feet from us, the eighth spirit of the casino appeared to be as angry as he had been when I had seen him earlier. Jaws clenched. Hands fisted.
Just pretty isnt good enough, Datura continued. Prettiness fades quickly. If you had lived, your life would have been nothing but cocktail waitressing and disappointment.
Buzz-cut came closer, now three feet behind the stricken spirit of Maryann Morris.
You had high hopes when you came to this job, Datura said, but it was a dead end, and soon you knew you
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