Forever Odd

it along the way.
        While I fumbled for the missing handgun, the brute surged up the post and seized my left ankle.
        I kicked and thrashed, but he held tight. In fact, he took a risk, let go of the post, and gripped my ankle with both hands.
        His great weight dragged on me so pitilessly that my hip should have dislocated. I heard a shout of pain and rage, then again, but did not realize until the second time that the shout came from me.
        The finial at the top of the depth marker had not been carved from the end of the post. The ornament had been made separately and applied.
        It broke loose in my hand.
        Together, Andre and I fell into the flood tide.

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    FIFTY-NINE
        
        AS WE FELL, I SLIPPED OUT OF HIS GRASP.
        I hit the water with sufficient force to go under, touch bottom. The powerful current rolled me, spun me, and I burst to the surface, coughing and sputtering.
        Cheval Andre, the bull, the stallion, floated directly ahead of me, fifteen feet away, facing me. Pitted against the punishing surge, he was not able to swim to the rendezvous with death that he clearly desired.
        His burning fury, his seething hatred, his lust for violence were so consuming that he would exhaust himself beyond recovery to have vengeance, and did not care that he would drown, too, after drowning me.
        Aside from Datura’s cheap physical appeal, I could not account for any quality in her that should elicit the absolute commitment of body, mind, and heart from any man, let alone from one who seemed to have no slightest capacity for sentimentality. Could this hard brute love beauty so much that he would die for it, even when it truly was skin deep and corrupted, even when she who possessed it had been mad, narcissistic, and manipulative?
        We were pawns of the flood, which spun us, lifted us, dropped us, dunked us, and bore us along at maybe thirty miles an hour, maybe faster. Sometimes we closed to within six feet of each other. Never were we farther apart than twenty.
        We passed the place at which I had entered these tunnels earlier in the day, and raced onward.
        I began to worry that we would sweep out of the lighted length of the tunnel, into darkness, and I feared plunging blindly into the subterranean lake less than I feared not being able to keep Andre in sight. If I was destined to drown, let the flood itself claim me. I didn’t want to die at his hands.
        Ahead, flush to the circumference of the great tunnel, a pair of steel gates together formed a circle. They resembled a portcullis in that they featured both horizontal and vertical bars.
        Between the crossed members of this grating, the openings were four inches square. The gate served as a final filter of the flood-borne debris.
        A marked quickening of the water suggested that a falls lay not far ahead, and the lake no doubt waited below those cascades. Beyond the gates, impenetrable blackness promised an abyss.
        The river brought Andre to the gate first, and I slammed against it a couple of seconds later, six feet to his right.
        Upon impact, he clawed over the clog of trash at the base of the gate, and pulled himself onto it.
        Stunned, I wanted only to cling there, rest, but because I knew that he would come for me, I clambered over the trash, too, and onto the gate. We hung motionless for but a moment, like a spider and its prey upon a web.
        He crabbed sideways along the steel grid. He didn’t appear to be breathing half as hard as I was.
        I would have preferred to retreat, but I could move only two or three feet away from him before I encountered the wall.
        Both feet on a vertical bar, gripping the gate with one hand, I extracted the fishing knife from my jeans. On the third try, when he had drawn within arm’s length of me, I flicked the blade out of the handle.
        The grievous hour had come round at last. It was him or me. Fish or cut bait.
        Fearless of the knife, he crabbed closer and reached for me.
        I slashed his hand.
        Instead of crying out or flinching, he clutched the blade in his bleeding fist.
        At some cost to him, I ripped the knife away from him.
        With his wounded hand, he seized a fistful of my hair and tried to yank me off the gate.
        As dirty as it was, and intimate, as terrible as it was, and necessary, I drove the knife