I Shall Wear Midnight

thoughts! Do you understand me?’
    While Tiffany was trying to put together some kind of coherent answer, he flopped down in the ancient chair behind the desk and sighed.
    ‘I have been told you were standing over my father with a poker in your hand, and that you demanded money from him,’ he said sadly.
    ‘That’s not true!’
    ‘And would you tell me if it was?’
    ‘No! Because there never would be a was! I would never do such a thing! Well, perhaps I was standing over him …’
    ‘Ah-ha!’
    ‘Don’t you dare ah-ha me, Roland, don’t you dare! Look, I know people have been telling you things, but they are not true.’
    ‘But you just admitted that you were standing over him, yes?’
    ‘It’s simply that he wanted me to show him how I keep my hands clean!’ She regretted this as soon as she said it. It was true, but what did that matter? It didn’t sound true. ‘Look, I can see that it—’
    ‘And you didn’t steal a bag of money?’
    ‘No!’
    ‘And you don’t know anything about a bag of money?’
    ‘Yes, your father asked me to take one out of the metal chest. He wanted to—’
    Roland interrupted her. ‘Where is that money now?’ His voice was flat and without expression.
    ‘I have no idea,’ said Tiffany. And as his mouth opened again, she shouted, ‘No! You will listen, understand? Sit there and listen! I attended your father for the better part of two years. I liked the old man and I would do nothing to hurt him or you. He died when it was his time to die. When that time comes, there is nothing anyone can do.’
    ‘Then what is magic for?’
    Tiffany shook her head. ‘Magic, as you call it, kept the pain away, and don’t you dare think that it came without a price! I have seen people die, and I promise you your father died well, and thinking of happy days.’
    Tears were streaming down Roland’s face, and she sensed his anger at being seen like that, stupid anger, as if tears made him less of a man and less of a baron.
    She heard him mutter, ‘Can you take away this grief?’
    ‘I’m sorry,’ she replied quietly. ‘Everyone asks me. And I would not do so even if I knew how. It belongs to you . Only time and tears take away grief; that is what they are for.’
    She stood up and took Amber’s hand; the girl was watching the Baron intently.
    ‘I’m going to take Amber home with me,’ Tiffany announced, ‘and you look as if you need a decent sleep.’
    This didn’t get a response. He sat there, staring at the paperwork as if hypnotized by it. That wretched nurse, she thought. I might have known she would make trouble. Poison goes where poison’s welcome, and in Miss Spruce’s case, it would have been welcomed with cheering crowds and possibly a small brass band. Yes, the nurse would have invited the Cunning Man in. She was exactly the sort of person who would let him in, give him power, envious power, jealous power, prideful power. But I know I haven’t done anything wrong, she told herself. Or have I? I can only see my life from the inside, and I suppose that on the inside nobody does anything wrong. Oh, blast it! Everybody brings their troubles to the witch! But I can’t blame the Cunning Man for everything people have said. I just wish there was somebody – other than Jeannie – to talk to who would take no notice of the pointy hat. So what do I do now? Yes, what do I do now, Miss Aching? What would you advise, Miss Aching, who is so good at making decisions for other people? Well, I would advise that you get some sleep as well. You didn’t sleep too well last night, what with Mrs Proust being a champion snorer, and an awful lot has happened since then. Also, I cannot remember when you last ate regular meals, and may I also point out that you are talking to yourself?
    She looked down at Roland slumped in the chair, his gaze far away. ‘I said I am taking Amber home with me for now.’
    Roland shrugged. ‘Well, I can hardly stop you, can I?’ he said sarcastically. ‘You are the witch.’
    * * *
    Tiffany’s mother uncomplainingly made up a bed for Amber, and Tiffany dropped off to sleep in her own bed at the other end of the big bedroom.
    She woke up on fire. Flames filled the entire room, flickering orange and red but burning as gently as the kitchen stove. There was no smoke, and although the room felt warm, nothing was actually burning. It was as if fire had just dropped in for a friendly visit, not for business. Its flames rustled.
    Enthralled,