Immortals After Dark 05 - Dark Needs at Nights Edge

landing on the sheet beside him.
    Her lithe body, the way she moves, those slippers—she must have been a dancer. A tantsija. Of course.
    When she twirls around again, she suddenly laughs. The sound is haunting. But for some reason, his lips curl in response to it. The grin turns to a scowl when Sebastian regards him as if he’s completely gone. A vacant grin from a madman.
    Because he is mad—there is no raven-haired spirit who wants to show him more than her garters.
    And still he can’t take his eyes from her as Sebastian starts up again. He hears snippets of his brother’s words. As he tends to do when he’s weary and wanting to be left alone, he repeats them, muttering back in a different language. “It eats at Nikolai, the guilt... they’ve been fighting the Vampire Horde for three centuries... . We can join their army... kill them off... . Not all vampires are evil.”
    He blinks when Sebastian falls silent.
    With a narrowed gaze, Sebastian says, “You haven’t been talking to yourself. You’re repeating all of our words. This time in Greek! You weren’t hallucinating—you were listening.” Sebastian nods, as if he’s encouraged by this. “I wonder what else you can do that we don’t know about?”
    I can see ghosts. In Estonian, he asks Sebastian, “To your right, you see nothing strange? No female in the room?”
    Sebastian glances around. In the same language, he answers slowly, “There are only the four of us in the room, Conrad.” His tone is one he’d use to explain, “Actually, brother, the sky isn’t green. It’s blue.”
    The female seems to have concluded her stealing and appears slower, fainter. Is she tired?
    “Conrad, do you see someone else?” Sebastian asks. “Your kind is supposed to suffer from severe delusions... .”
    His “delusion” is now listening in on Murdoch and Nikolai’s murmured conversation at the edge of the room. “He reeks of blood and mud,” Nikolai says. “He might be improving, but to others he wouldn’t look like it. If we ever had to defend our plan... ”
    Without warning, she’s on the bed beside him. From too close by his ear, she asks, “Is this true, vampire?” Her words come much more quickly, almost normally. He’s able to discern that she has a tinge of a French accent.
    “Do you reek, dément? I can’t smell. But it makes sense... considering how dirty you are.”
    He becomes acutely aware that his face is caked with blood and mud, his hair stiff with it. Dément. Is that all she sees him as? A madman to be ignored? Or worse—pitied? That is how she sees him.
    A filthy, sexually inexperienced lunatic.
    She’s seen him spit blood. Did she witness him mindlessly banging his head against the wall? Damn it, he’s beginning to dislike this clarity! Again, he craves the oblivion of memories. It’s easier to be awash in them, to hate, to hurt... .
    Yet the female beside him moors his mind to the present like an anchor.
    “They should give you a bath,” she says in her whispery voice, just as Sebastian intones, “Rest easy, Conrad. The hallucinations will disappear before you know—”
    “Leave me!” he snaps. He almost said, “Leave us.”
    The ghost drifts away, readying her loot to depart. No, not you! When she and the items vanish, all that’s left of her is the petal on the sheet. He inches over, wanting to touch it. But it begins to fade. Then gone.
    He shifts in the bed, restless and chafing in his bonds. Want her here.
    Sebastian rises. “Very well, we’ll go. Call out if you need anything—or if you feel like drinking.”
    They leave him in the darkened room. “Have you seen my cell phone?” Nikolai asks on the way out.
    Before he has time to analyze why her absence could possibly disappoint him to this degree, others’ memories bubble up in his mind as though from a wellspring.
    Over the years, he hasn’t killed honorable men, actually has taken out some who were even more monstrous than himself. And their memories, now his memories, chill him to his bones.
    He sees scenes of torture he hasn’t inflicted, harrowing murders of women and children he never committed. Glassy, sightless eyes stare up at him—but not him.
    These memories demand to be acknowledged, to be experienced. Before they’ll be allayed, each must be relived, eking away his sanity.
    And he has none left to lose.
    8

    Néomi was fairly much an open book—open about her sexuality, her body, her opinions. But she had two dirty little