Mercy Thompson 01-05 - THE MERCY THOMPSON COLLECTION

the ones who don’t want a coyote in the pack. As Warren knows the wolves who hate what he is more than what he does.” Briefly, sorrow lit his eyes for Warren’s trials, but he kept speaking. “Just as Darryl knows the wolves who resent being given orders by a black man made uppity by a good education.” He smiled, just a little. “You aren’t alone, most people are prejudiced about something. But you know, after a while the edges wear down. You know who hated Darryl the most when he joined us, way back when we were still in New Mexico?”
    I raised my eyebrows in inquiry.
    â€œAurielle. She thought he was an arrogant, self-important snob.”
    â€œWhich he is,” I observed. “But he’s also smart, quick, and given to small kindnesses when no one is watching.”
    â€œSo,” he nodded. “We are none of us perfect, and as pack, we learn to take these imperfections and make them only a small part of who we are. Let us bring you truly into our shelter, Mercedes. And the wolves who resent you will deal with it as you will deal with the ones you don’t like, for whatever reason. I think, with the healing you have already done on your own, the pack can help stop your panic attacks.”
    â€œBen’s rude,” I said, considering it.
    â€œSee, you already know most of us,” Adam said. “And Ben adores you. He doesn’t quite know how to deal with it yet. He’s not used to liking anyone ... and liking a woman ...”
    â€œIsh,” I said, deadpan.
    â€œLet’s try again,” he suggested, and put out his hand.
    This time when I touched him, all I felt was skin and calluses, no warmth, no magic.
    He tilted his head and evaluated me sternly. “It’s hard to argue with instinct, even with reason and logic, isn’t it? May I knock?”
    â€œWhat?”
    â€œMay I see if I can touch you first? Maybe that’ll allow you to open to the pack.”
    It sounded harmless enough. Warily, I nodded ... and I felt him, felt his spirit or something, touch me. It wasn’t like when I’d called Stefan. That had been as intimate as talking was—not very much. Adam’s touch reminded me more of the presence I felt sometimes in church—but this was unmistakably Adam and not God.
    And because it was Adam, I let him in, accepting him into my secret heart. Something settled into place with a rightness that rang in my soul. Then the floodgates opened.
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    THE NEXT TIME I WAS CONSCIOUS OF ANYTHING REAL, I was back in Adam’s lap but on his bedroom floor instead of in the bathroom. A number of the pack surrounded us and stood with their hands linked. My head hurt like the one and only time I’d gotten truly drunk, only much worse.
    â€œWe’re going to have to work on your filtering skills, Mercy,” said Adam, his voice sounding a little rough.
    As if that was a signal, the pack broke apart and became individuals again—though I hadn’t been aware they were anything else until it was gone. Something stopped, and my head didn’t hurt so much. Uncomfortable at being on the floor when everyone else was on their feet, I rolled forward and tried to use my hands to get leverage so I could stand.
    â€œNot so fast,” Samuel murmured. He hadn’t been one of the circle, I’d have noticed him, but he pushed his way through to the front of the line. He gave me a hand and pulled until I was on my feet.
    â€œI’m sorry,” I told Adam, knowing something bad had happened, but I couldn’t quite focus on what it had been.
    â€œNothing to be sorry for, Mercy,” Samuel assured me with a little edge to his voice. “Adam is old enough to know better than to draw his mate into the pack at the same time as he seals your mate bond. Sort of like someone teaching a baby to swim in the ocean. During a tsunami.”
    Adam hadn’t gotten up when I did, and when I looked at him, his face was grayish underneath his tan. He had his eyes closed, and he was sitting as if moving would be very painful. “Not your fault, Mercy. I asked you to open up to me.”
    â€œWhat happened?” I asked him.
    Adam opened his eyes, and they were as yellow as I’d ever seen them. “Full-throttle overload,” he said. “Someone probably should call Darryl and Warren and make sure they’re all right. They stepped in without notice and helped tuck you