Mr. Murder

reasonably successful mystery novelist.
        Yet his heart was beating faster than ever.
        Marty walked out of his office into the second-floor hall, as far as the head of the stairs. He stood as still as the newel post on which he rested one hand.
        He wasn't certain what he expected to hear. The soft creak of a door, stealthy footsteps? The furtive rustles and clicks and muffled thumps of an intruder slowly making his way through the house?
        Gradually, as he heard nothing suspicious and as his racing heart grew calmer, his sense of impending disaster faded. Anxiety became mere uneasiness.
        "Who's there?" he asked, just to break the silence.
        The sound of his voice, full of puzzlement, dispelled the portentous mood. Now the hush was only that of an empty house, devoid of menace.
        He returned to his office at the end of the hall and settled in the leather chair behind his desk. With the shutters tightly closed and no lamps on except the one with the stained-glass shade, the corners of the room seemed to recede farther than the dimensions of the walls allowed, as if it were a place in a dream.
        Because the motif of the lamp shade was fruit, the protective glass on the desk top reflected luminous ovals and circles of cherry-red, plum-purple, grape-green, lemon-yellow, and berry-blue. In its polished metal and Plexiglas surfaces, the cassette recorder, which lay on the glass, also reflected the bright mosaic, glimmering as if encrusted with jewels. When he reached for the recorder, Marty saw that his hand appeared to be sheathed in the pebbly, iridescent rainbow skin of an exotic lizard.
        He hesitated, studying the faux scales on the back of his hand and the phantom jewels on the recorder. Real life was as layered with illusion as any piece of fiction.
        He picked up the recorder and pressed the rewind button for a second or two, seeking the last few words of the unfinished letter to his editor.
        The thin, high-speed whistle-shriek of his voice in reverse issued like an alien language from the small, tinny speaker.
        When he thumbed the play button, he found that he had not reversed far enough, "… I need… I need… I need…"
        Frowning, he switched the machine to rewind, taking the tape back twice as far as before.
        But still, "… I need… I need…"
        Rewind. Two seconds. Five. Ten. Stop. Play. … I need… I need… I need…"
        After two more attempts, he found the letter, "… so I should be able to have the final draft of the new book in your hands in about a month.
        I think this one is… this one is… uh… this one…"
        The dictation stopped. Silence unreeled from the tape and the sound of his breathing.
        By the time the two-word chant finally began to issue from the speaker, Marty had leaned forward tensely on the edge of the chair, frowning at the recorder in his hand.. … I need… I need…"
        He checked his watch. Not quite six minutes past four o'clock.
        Initially the dreamy murmur was the same as when he'd first come to his senses and heard soft chanting like the responses to an interminable, unimaginative religious litany. After about half a minute, however, his voice on the tape changed, became sharp with urgency, swelled with anguish, then with anger.
        "… NEED… NEED… NEED… "
          Frustration seethed through those two words.
        The Marty Stillwater on the tape-who might as well have been a total stranger to the listening Marty Stillwater-sounded in acute emotional pain for want of something that he could neither describe nor imagine.
        Mesmerized, he scowled at the notched white spools of the cassette player turning relentlessly behind the plastic view window.
        Finally the voice fell silent, the recording ended, and Marty consulted his watch again. More than twelve minutes past four.
        He had assumed that he'd lost his concentration for only a few seconds, slipped into a brief daydream. Instead, he'd sat with the recorder gripped in his hand, the letter to his editor forgotten, repeating those two words for seven minutes or longer.
        Seven minutes, for God's sake.
        And he had remembered none of it. As if in a trance.
        Now he stopped the tape. His hand was trembling, and when he put the cassette recorder on the desk, it rattled against the glass.
        He looked around the office, where he