Once An Eve Novel

of The New America,” Clara muttered. “Anyone would kill to be in your position.” The way she said it—the emphasis on kill —unnerved me.
    “When was the last time you were outside these walls?” I asked. “Ten years ago?”
    Clara’s straw-colored hair was in a braid, which snaked around her head and curled up at the nape of her neck. “What’s your point?” She narrowed her gray eyes at me.
    “You can’t speak to it, to whether or not I have a right to be angry or annoyed. You don’t know what the world is like outside your bubble.” With that I turned and started through the gallery’s main entrance.
    Inside, the room was cool, and empty except for a few schoolchildren clustered in the corner, their gray uniforms similar to the ones I’d grown up wearing. For a brief moment, the soldier and Clara were behind me, and I had the grand feeling of being alone. The open space comforted me. The wood floors were solid beneath my feet, the walls covered with familiar friends. I walked over to the Van Gogh painting I’d seen in my art books so many times before, the blue flowers that stretched across the canvas, growing toward the sun. IRISES , VINCENT VAN GOGH , a plaque beside it read. RECOVERED FROM THE GETTY MUSEUM, LOS ANGELES .
    More paintings hung in a row, Manet and Titian and Cézanne, one after another. I walked beside them, remembering all the time I’d spent on the School lawn, the lake in front of me, dragging brush across canvas to replicate its glassy surface. I was examining the gash in the bottom of a Renoir, its canvas taped together, when Clara came up beside me.
    “There are things I do know,” she said, her voice tinged with anger. I could tell she had been preparing this speech for the last few minutes. Each word quivered with delight as she spoke. “I know how unsavory it is for a woman to be a man’s mistress .” She stared at the two figures in the painting. A man was helping a woman up a grassy incline.
    “What are you talking about?” I asked, unable to stop myself.
    “You weren’t your father’s firstborn,” she said. “You were his last. I had three cousins before you, and an aunt, all of them lost in the plague.” Then she turned, glaring at me. “I don’t know what kind of woman would do that—have sex with a married man.”
    I smiled, trying to ignore the lump that had crept up the back of my throat. “You’re mistaken,” I managed. Clara just shrugged before she strode past me, toward a still life on the far wall.
    My feet were rooted to the ground. I stared at the man in the painting, the hat that cast darkness on his face, the pink bulb of his nose, the way his eyes were painted with two black lines. He seemed to be sneering at me now.
    She was his mistress , I thought to myself, my vision blurred by sudden tears. My mother, who had sung to me in the bath, wiping the suds from my eyes. I was five again, kneeling on the floor. She was sick. I saw the broken light underneath the bedroom door, her shadow moving as she rapped her knuckles against the wood, tapping out her kisses, because she couldn’t risk pressing her lips to my skin. I had held my palm to the other side, keeping it there even after she went back to bed, her coughs breaking the night’s silence.
    I turned toward the door, the tears threatening to overtake me. I kept walking, past the irises and Manet’s bullfight, the animal spearing the horse with its great and terrible horns.
    “Your Royal Highness?” I heard the soldier ask, his footsteps behind me. “Would you like to be escorted upstairs now?”
    I kept ahead of him, barely listening as he ushered Clara out after me, toward the elevator. No matter what Clara said, I knew it wasn’t my mother’s fault, it couldn’t have been, the woman who loved me so sweetly, who’d squeezed my toes one by one as she counted them, singing a silly song in my ear. Blowing on my soup to cool it before I even took one spoonful. He was the one who had had the other family.
    I stepped inside the elevator. Clara came after me, making the car feel smaller and claustrophobic, the air stale and hot.
    “Is everything all right, Princess?” the soldier asked as he pressed the button. I clasped my hands together, trying to steady them. I could only think of the King, that story he’d told me, the photo he’d held in his hands. He’d never said anything about his family. He’d taken so long to come for me, left me alone in that house. I spent