Spencerville

parking lot to take that month’s
levy
of young men from Spencer County to the induction center in Toledo.
    Keith Landry recalled clearly the worried looks on the faces of his family but could not recall very well how he himself felt or acted.
    He seemed to remember, however, that he felt awful, and at the same time, he was filled with a sense of adventure, an eagerness to leave, which made him feel guilty. He didn’t understand then his mixed emotions, but now he did, and it could be summed up in a line from an old song: How you gonna keep them down on the farm, after they’ve seen Paree?
    But it wasn’t Paree, it was Vietnam, and the recruits hadn’t mustered in the village square for a roll call and jolly send-off, nor had they returned marching up Main Street after what would have been called V-V Day. And yet, the net effect of the experience for Landry was the same: He never came back to the farm. He’d come back physically, of course, in one piece, but he’d never come back in mind or spirit, and the farm was never his home after that.
    So here it was, a quarter century after he’d stepped off his front porch into the world, and he was standing at the steps of that porch again, and the images of his family faded away, leaving him with an unexpected sadness.
    He said to himself, “Well,
I’m
home, even if no one else is.”
    He climbed the steps, found the key in his pocket, and entered.

CHAPTER TWO
    O n the north side of Spencerville, the better side of town, ten-point-three miles from the Landry farm, Annie Baxter, née Prentis, cleared the dinner dishes from the kitchen table.
    Her husband, Cliff Baxter, finished his can of Coors, barely suppressed a belch, looked at his watch, and announced, “I got to go back to work.”
    Annie had gathered as much from the fact that Cliff had not changed into his usual jeans and T-shirt before dinner. He wore his tan police uniform and had shoved a dish towel in his collar to keep the beef gravy off his pleated shirt. Annie noted that his underarms and waist were wet with perspiration. His holster and pistol hung from a peg on the wall, and he’d left his hat in his police car.
    Annie inquired, “When do you think you’ll be home?”
    “Oh, you know better than to ask me that, honey buns.” He rose. “Who the hell knows? This job’s gettin’ crazy. Drugs and fucked-up kids.” He strapped on his holster.
    Annie noticed that the gun belt was at the last notch, and if she had been mean-spirited, she would have offered to fetch a leather awl and make a new hole for him.
    Cliff Baxter noticed her looking at his girth and said, “You feed me too damn good.”
    Of course it was her fault. She remarked, “You might ease up on the beer.”
    “You might ease up on your mouth.”
    She didn’t reply. She was in no mood for a fight, especially over something she didn’t care about.
    She looked at her husband. For all his extra weight, he was still a good-looking man in many ways, with tanned, rugged features, a full head of thick brown hair, and blue eyes that had a little sparkle left. It was his looks and his body that had attracted her to him some twenty years before, along with his bad-boy charm and cockiness. He had been a good lover, at least by the standards of those days and this place. He’d turned out to be a passable father, too, and a good provider, rising quickly to chief of police. But he was not a good husband, though if you asked him, he’d say he was.
    Cliff Baxter opened the screen door and said, “Don’t bolt the doors like you did last time.”
    Last time, she thought, was nearly a year ago, and she’d done it on purpose, so he’d have to ring and knock to wake her. She was looking for a fight then but had gotten more than she’d bargained for. He’d come home that time after four A.M. , and since then and before then, it was always around four, once or twice a week.
    Of course his job required odd hours, and that alone was no cause for suspicion. But through other means and other sources, she’d learned that her husband fooled around.
    Cliff trundled down the back steps and howled at their four dogs in the backyard. The dogs broke into excited barking and pawed at their chain-link enclosure. Cliff howled again, then laughed. To his wife he said, “Make sure you give them the scraps and let them run awhile.”
    Annie didn’t reply. She watched him get into his chief’s car and back out of the driveway. She closed the kitchen