The Girl You Left Behind
old people
behind me broke into an echoing murmur, the singing briefly forgotten. ‘
Vive
la France!
’
The young soldier glanced behind him,
perhaps for instruction from his superior, but was distracted by a shout further down
the line. A prisoner had taken advantage of the commotion to break for freedom. The
young man, his arm in a makeshift sling, had slipped from the ranks and was now fleeing
across the square.
The
Kommandant
, standing with two
of his officers by the broken statue of Mayor Leclerc, was the first to see him.
‘Halt!’ he shouted. The young man ran faster, his oversized shoes slipping
from his feet. ‘
HALT!
’
The prisoner dropped his backpack and
appeared briefly to pick up speed. He stumbled as he lost his second shoe, but somehow
righted himself. He was about to disappear around the corner. The
Kommandant
whipped a pistol from his jacket. Almost before I had registered what he was doing, he
lifted his arm, aimed and fired. The boy went down with an audible crack.
The world stopped. The birds fell silent. We
stared at the motionless body on the cobbles and Hélène let out a low moan.
She made as if to go to him, but the
Kommandant
ordered us all to stay back. He
shouted something in German, and his men raised their rifles, pointing them at the
remaining prisoners.
Nobody moved. The captives stared at the
ground. They seemed unsurprised by this turn of events. Hélène’s hands
had gone to her mouth, and she trembled, muttering something I could not hear. I slid my
arm around her waist. I could hear my own ragged breathing.
The
Kommandant
walked briskly away
from us towards the prisoner. When he reached him, he dropped to his haunches, and
pressed his fingers to the young man’s jaw. A dark red puddle already stained his
threadbare jacket, and I could see his eyes, staring blankly across the square. The
Kommandant
squatted there for a minute, then stood again. Two German
officers moved towards him, but he motioned them into formation. He walked back across
the square, tucking his pistol into his jacket. He stopped briefly when he passed in
front of the mayor.
‘You will make the necessary
arrangements,’ he said.
The mayor nodded. I saw the faint tic to his
jaw.
With a shout, the column moved on up the
road, the prisoners with their heads bowed, the women of St Péronne now weeping
openly into their handkerchiefs. The body lay in a crumpled heap a short distance across
from rue des Bastides.
Less than a minute after the Germans had
marched away, René Grenier’s clock chimed a mournful quarter past the hour
into the silence.
That night the mood in Le Coq Rouge was
sober. The
Kommandant
did not attempt to make conversation; neither did I give
the slightest impression that I wished for it. Hélène and I served the meal,
washed the cooking pots, and remained in the kitchen as far as we could. I had no
appetite. I could not escape the image of that poor young man, his ragged clothes flying
out behind him, his oversized shoes falling from his feet as he fled to his death.
More than that, I could not believe that the
officer who had whipped out his pistol and shot him so pitilessly wasthe same man who had sat at my tables, looking wistful about the child he had not
seen, exclaiming about the art that he had. I felt foolish, as if the
Kommandant
had concealed his true self. This was what the Germans were here
for, not discussions about art and delicious food. They were here to shoot our sons and
husbands. They were here to destroy us.
I missed my husband at that moment with a
physical pain. It was now nearly three months since I had last received word from him. I
had no idea of what he endured. While we existed in this strange bubble of isolation, I
could convince myself that he was fine and robust, that he was out there in the real
world, sharing a flask of cognac with his comrades, or perhaps sketching on a scrap of
paper in some idle hours. When I closed my eyes I saw the Édouard I remembered from
Paris. But seeing those pitiful Frenchmen marched through the streets made it harder for
me to hold on to my fantasy. Édouard might be captured, injured, starving. He might
be suffering as those men suffered. He might be dead.
I leaned on the sink and closed my eyes.
At that moment I heard the crash. Jerked
away from my thoughts, I ran out of the kitchen. Hélène stood with her
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