The Satanic Verses

strings, to find out what was connected to what … ‘I can’t help it,’ Allie was saying. ‘I feel in some obscure way to blame for him. Our life isn’t working out and it’s my fault. My mother gets angry when I talk like this.’ Alicja, on the verge of catching the plane west, berated her daughter at Terminal Three. ‘I don’t understand where you get these notions from,’ she cried amid backpackers, briefcases and weeping Asian mums. ‘You could say your father’s life didn’t go according to plan, either. So he should be blamed for the camps? Study history, Alleluia. In this century history stopped paying attention to the old psychological orientation of reality. I mean, these days, character isn’t destiny any more. Economics is destiny. Ideology is destiny. Bombs are destiny. What does a famine, a gas chamber, a grenade care how you lived your life? Crisis comes, death comes, and your pathetic individual self doesn’t have a thing to do with it, only to suffer the effects. This Gibreel of yours: maybe he’s how history happens to you.’ She had returned, without warning, to the grand style of wardrobe preferred by Otto Cone, and, it seemed, to an oratorical manner that suited the big black hats and frilly suits. ‘Enjoy California, Mother,’ Allie said sharply. ‘One of us is happy,’ Alicja said. ‘Why shouldn’t it be me?’ And before her daughter could answer, she swept off past the passengers-only barrier, flourishing passport, boarding-pass, ticket, heading for the duty-free bottles of
Opium
and Gordon’s Gin, which were on sale beneath an illuminated sign reading SAY HELLO TO THE GOOD BUYS .
    In the last light, the road rounded a spur of treeless, heather-covered hills. Long ago, in another country, another twilight, Chamcha had rounded another such spur and come into sight of the remains of Persepolis. Now, however, he was heading for a human ruin; not to admire, and maybe even (for the decision to do evil is never finally taken until the very instant of the deed;there is always a last chance to withdraw) to vandalize. To scrawl his name in Gibreel’s flesh:
Saladin woz ear
. ‘Why stay with him?’ he asked Allie, and to his surprise she blushed. ‘Why not spare yourself the pain?’
    ‘I don’t really know you, not at all, really,’ she began, then paused and made a choice. ‘I’m not proud of the answer, but it’s the truth,’ she said. ‘It’s the sex. We’re unbelievable together, perfect, like nothing I’ve known. Dream lovers. He just seems to, to
know
. To know
me
.’ She fell silent; the night hid her face. Chamcha’s bitterness surged up again. Dream lovers were all around him; he, dreamless, could only watch. He gritted angry teeth; and bit, by mistake, his tongue.
    Gibreel and Allie had holed up in Durisdeer, a village so small it didn’t have a pub, and were living in a deconsecrated Freekirk converted – the quasi-religious term sounded strange to Chamcha – by an architect friend of Allie’s who had made a fortune out of such metamorphoses of the sacred into the profane. It struck Saladin as a gloomy sort of place, for all its white walls, recessed spotlights and wall-to-wall shag-pile carpeting. There were gravestones in the garden. As a retreat for a man suffering from paranoid delusions of being the chief archangel of God, Chamcha reflected, it wouldn’t have been his own first choice. The Freekirk was set a little apart from the dozen or so other stone-and-tile houses that made up the community: isolated even within this isolation. Gibreel was standing at the door, a shadow against the illuminated hallway, when the car pulled up. ‘You got here,’ he shouted. ‘Yaar, too good. Welcome to bloody jail.’
    The drugs made Gibreel clumsy. As the three of them sat around the pitch-pine kitchen table beneath the gentrified pulldown dimmer-switched lighting, he twice knocked over his coffee-cup (he was ostentatiously off booze; Allie, pouring two generous shots of Scotch, kept Chamcha company), and, cursing, stumbled about the kitchen for paper-towels to mop up the mess. ‘When I get sick of being this way I just cut down without telling her,’ he confessed. ‘And then the shit starts happening. I swear to you, Spoono, I can’t bear the bloody idea that it will never stop,that the only choice is drugs or bugs in the brain. I can’t bloody bear it. I swear, yaar, if I thought that was it, then, bas, I don’t know, I’d, I don’t know