The Witness

the case, then it’s long past time you had someone willing to look out for you now and again who gives a goddamn. Now, fucking breathe.”
    “Don’t swear at me.”
    “Breathe, and I won’t have to.”
    She pulled away from him, leaned against the porch post. Tears came along with the breath, so she pressed her face to the wood.
    “You want me on my knees, that’s the way to do it.” Rubbing his hands over his face, Brooks dug for composure. “Abigail, if I’m responsible for making you this unhappy, you’ve got my word I’ll leave you be. But I wish to God you’d let me help you.”
    “You can’t help me.”
    “How do you know?”
    She turned her face toward his. “Why do you care?”
    “I’d say you haven’t had enough social interaction or interpersonal relationships if you don’t understand why anyone would.”
    “You’re making fun of me again.”
    “Not this time.” He didn’t touch her, but his voice was a gentle stroke over raw nerves. “I’ve got feelings for you. I haven’t sorted them all out yet, but I like having them.”
    She shook her head. “It’s just a chemical reaction.”
    “So you’ve said. I took chemistry in high school. Sucked at it. Am I making you this unhappy?”
    She wanted to say yes, because she believed he’d go and stay away. But she couldn’t lie when he looked in her eyes. “No. It makes me happy when I see you. I don’t want to be happy because of you.”
    “So being happy makes you unhappy.”
    “I know that doesn’t sound rational, but it’s accurate. I’m sorry I behaved that way.”
    “Don’t apologize.”
    He dug into his pocket, came up with a folded blue bandanna. “Here you go, now.”
    Despising herself, she sniffled. “Thank you.”
    “I’m going to ask you a question. If you’re not ready to answer, say so. But don’t lie to me. Is this about a husband, ex-husband, boyfriend, something on those lines, who hurt you?”
    “No. No. There’s no one like that. No one’s hurt me.”
    “You got hurt all over you. Are you saying no one physically hurt you?”
    “Yes.” Calmer, she dabbed at her eyes with the soft, faded cloth, then stared out at her greenhouse. “I can take care of myself. I don’t have husbands or boyfriends or relationships.”
    “You’ve got one now—the relationship.” Stepping over, he took her chin in one hand, brushed at the drying tears on her cheeks with the other. “You’re going to have to put that big brain of yours to work on how to deal with it.”
    “I’m not like other people, Brooks.”
    “You’re unique. Why shouldn’t you be?”
    “You don’t understand.”
    “Then help me understand.”
    How much could she tell him? If he understood, just enough, maybe it would end it.
    “I want my wine.”
    “I’ll get it.” Before she could comment, he’d stepped back inside. She took the moment to align her thoughts. No point in wishing for more time to prepare, she told herself.
    “I don’t need you to do things for me,” she began, when he came out with their wine. “It’s important to me that I do for myself.”
    “The wine? Seriously?” He took his own to the porch steps, sat. “Manners are important, too. Simple courtesies. My mother’s a very capable, independent woman, but I’d’ve gotten her glass of wine. From what I’ve seen, what I know, you’re as capable as they come. That doesn’t mean I can’t do you a courtesy.”
    “It’s stupid.” A little lost, she looked down at the cloth, turned it in her hands. “I hate being stupid. And it wasn’t what I was going to say, anyway.”
    “Why don’t you sit down here and say what you’re going to say?”
    She hesitated, then signaled to Bert that he could go into the yard, and sat.
    “I am capable of most things, but I don’t believe I’m capable of maintaining a relationship.”
    “Because?”
    “When my mother decided she wanted a child, she researched donors.”
    “So she wasn’t involved with anyone.”
    “No. No one she wanted to procreate with.”
    Procreate, Brooks thought. That was a telling word.
    “She’d reached a point in her life where she wanted a child. That’s not accurate,” Abigail decided. “She wanted an offspring, and she had very specific, very detailed, requirements for the donor. My mother is a very intelligent woman, and naturally she wanted to produce an intelligent … offspring. She required high intellect, good health, including family medical history. She had