William Monk 11 - Slaves of Obsession
achieved the great changes in governments or nations. It might be the price of such mighty gains.
Hester had no doubt about it. She thought him innately selfish, and she said so.
“Perhaps Merrit understands him?” Monk suggested to her as they walked together on the deck as the dying sun splashed across the ruffled water, spilling color like fire over the blue. “Words or gestures are not always necessary.”
“Rubbish!” She dismissed the argument, narrowing her eyes against the light and staring seawards. “Of course they aren’t. But a look is … or a touch, something. She’s feeling for both of them now, sharing his pain and loving him desperately. But what about her pain? It’s her father who’s dead, not his! She’s not a soldier, William, any more than you are.” Her eyes were very gentle, searching his for the wound she could heal. “Maybe he doesn’t have nightmares about the battlefield, about Sudley Church, and the men we couldn’t help … but she does.” Her lips were soft, full of pain. “So do I. Perhaps we should. But we need someone to hold on to.”
“Maybe he’s already said all he can to her?” he answered, moving closer and putting his arm around her.
Her face in the beautiful light was quite suddenly full of anger, her eyes wide. “She’ll die of loneliness … when she realizes at last that he isn’t going to give her anything ofhimself. He’s always going to love the Union first, because it’s easier. It doesn’t ask anything back.”
“It asks everything back!” he protested. “His time, his career, even his life!”
She looked at him steadily. “But not his laughter, or his patience, or generosity to forget himself for a little while,” she explained. “Or think of something that perhaps doesn’t interest him especially. It won’t ever ask him to listen instead of speaking, to change his mind before he’s ready to, to walk a little more slowly or reconsider some of his judgments, let somebody else be the hero, without making a grand gesture of it.”
He knew what she meant.
“He’ll always do it on his terms,” she finished quietly. It was like a damnation.
“Are you sure he killed Alberton?” he asked her.
It was several minutes before she replied. The sky was darkening and the color across the water no longer had the same heat in it. The depth of the sky was indigo shadow, limitless, so beautiful its briefness ached inside her. No matter that there would be dusk tomorrow night, and the night after, and after that; none of them would ever be long enough. And soon she would see them not across the water but over city roofs.
“I don’t know,” she said at last. “No other answer makes any sense … but I’m not certain.”
The ship docked at Bristol and Monk disembarked first, leaving the others behind in Trace’s care. He went straight to the nearest police station and told them who he was and of his association with Lanyon regarding the murders in Tooley Street, which crimes had been well reported in the newspapers. He told them he had brought Lyman Breeland back, also Merrit Alberton, and proposed to take them to London by train.
The police were duly impressed and offered to send a constable with them for assistance, and to make sure the prisoners did not escape during the journey. Monk noted the use of the plural with a twinge of distress, but not surprise.
“Thank you,” he accepted. It was not willingly that he included another person—it robbed him of some of his autonomy—but he would require official help, and it would be idiotic to risk losing all they had gained for a matter of pride and the right to make choices which probably would not make the slightest difference in the end.
As it was, the journey was uneventful. The Bristol police had telegraphed ahead, and Lanyon was at the railway station to meet them. Seeing the crowds, Monk was relieved. It might have proved very difficult to keep Breeland from breaking away without help. Had either he or Trace brandished a pistol they might well have been overpowered by some member of the public brave enough to attempt it and innocent enough to have believed Breeland a victim of kidnap.
Whether the fact that they still held Merrit would have restrained him was not something on which Monk would have wished to rely. Breeland might have justified to himself that the Union cause was of greater importance than the life of one woman, whoever it was. He might even have
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