William Monk 16 - Execution Dock

to know of it?”
    “You know the case?” Oliver felt foolish, as if he had been playacting and been caught at it half-clothed.
    Henry smiled. “Not at all, but I know you. I know your strengths and your weaknesses. If you did not feel guilty about it you would not be troubled. I assume you won? You would always try your best; youare incapable of anything else. Losing justly would not disturb you, if the man were guilty. Winning unjustly is another matter.”
    “It wasn't unjust,” Oliver said immediately, and just as immediately knew that he had spoken too quickly “It was not by dishonest means,” he corrected. “The prosecution was sloppy, too governed by emotion to make certain of all its facts.”
    “Which weakness you knew, and used,” Henry extrapolated. “Why does that trouble you?”
    Oliver looked down at the long-familiar carpet, its reds and blues like stained-glass windows in the last of the sunlight slanting low in through the open doors. The evening scent of the honeysuckle was now stronger than the wine.
    Again Henry waited.
    The silence grew deeper. Homing birds fluttered up across the darkening color of the sky.
    “I knew some of the chief witnesses well enough to use my understanding of them to their disadvantage,” Oliver admitted at last.
    “And lost their friendship?” Henry asked very gently. “Did they not understand the necessity that you defend the man to the best of your ability? You are his advocate, not his judge.”
    Oliver looked up, surprised. The question cut closer to the truth than he wished, because now he must answer honestly, or deliberately choose to lie. Lying to his father had never been an option. It would unalterably destroy the foundation of his own identity, his belief in the goodness of what mattered. “Yes, they both understood that. What they didn't and still don't understand is why I chose to take that case when I didn't have to, knowing that the man now cannot be tried again, although he will certainly go back to the river, and continue with his filthy trade. If I am honest, I know he will almost certainly kill again. I could have left his defense to someone else who would not have had the privileged knowledge I had, and would have given him a defense adequate before the law, and gained a verdict of guilty, which I believe would have been the right one. I think that is what an equal contest would have produced.”
    Henry smiled. “You credit the man's escape to your superior ability?”
    “Superior knowledge of the emotional involvement of the chief witnesses for the prosecution,” Oliver corrected him.
    “Are they not, by definition, always involved?”
    Oliver hesitated.
    “Police?” Henry asked. “Monk?”
    “And Hester,” Oliver said quietly, staring down at the carpet. “They cared about the boy's murder too much to be thorough. It was Durban's one unfinished case, before he died. Too many debts of love and honor involved.” He looked up and met his father's eyes.
    “And you used them,” Henry concluded.
    “Yes.”
    “And your own debt of honor that caused you to take the case? Does Monk know of that? I imagine he will find out. Perhaps you had better find out first yourself? Have you perhaps caused Monk to pay your debt to someone?”
    “No. No, I paid more than I owed, because I wanted to be comfortable,” Oliver said with sudden lacerating honesty. “It was to Margaret's father, because I wanted to please her.”
    “At Hester's expense?”
    Oliver knew why his father had asked that, and exactly why the hurt was there in his voice. Henry had always liked Hester better. He tried to hide it. He was fond of Margaret, and would have been kind to any woman Oliver had married. But Margaret could never make him laugh as Hester had, nor would he feel comfortable enough with her to argue for fun, or tell long, rambling tales of gentle adventure and dry humor. Margaret had dignity and grace, morality and honor, but she had not Hester's intelligence, nor her passion. Was she less, or more vulnerable?
    Henry was watching his son closely. He saw the change in his eyes. “Hester will survive anything you can do to her, Oliver,” he said. “That is not to say that she may not be hurt.”
    Oliver remembered Hester's face as she had stood in the witness box, the pain and surprise on it. She had not expected him to do such a thing, either to her or to Monk.
    “Guilt?” Henry asked him. “Or fear that you have forfeited her good opinion