A Malazan Book of the Fallen Collection 2

of order and calm. Even so, it was the smaller details that jarred his sensibilities the most, that reinforced the fact that he was a stranger.
    Feeling vulnerable was not a weakness he shared with Apsalar. She seemed possessed of absolute calm, an ease, no matter where she was – the confidence of the god who once possessed her had left something of a permanent imprint on her soul. Not just confidence. He thought once more of the night she had killed the man in Kan. Deadly skills, and the icy precision necessary when using them. And, he recalled with a shiver, many of the god's own memories remained with her, reaching back to when the god had been a mortal man, had been Dancer. Among those, the night of the assassinations – when the woman who would become
Empress had struck down the Emperor ... and Dancer.
    She had revealed that much, at least, a revelation devoid of feeling, of sentiment, delivered as casually as a comment about the weather. Memories of biting knives, of dust-covered blood rolling like pellets across a floor ...
    He removed the pot from the coals, threw a handful of herbs into the steaming water.
    She had gone for a walk, westward along the white beach. Even as dusk settled, he had lost sight of her, and he had begun to wonder if she was ever coming back.
    A log settled suddenly, flinging sparks. The sea had grown entirely dark, invisible; he could not even hear the lap of the waves beyond the crackling fire. A cooler breath rode the breeze.
    Cutter slowly rose, then spun round to face inland as something moved in the gloom beyond the fire's light. 'Apsalar?'
    There was no reply. A faint thumping underfoot, as if the sands trembled to the passage of something huge ... huge and four-legged.
    The Daru drew out his knives, stepping away from the flickering light.
    Ten paces away, at a height to match his own, he saw two glowing eyes, set wide, gold and seemingly depthless. The head and the body beneath it were darker stains in the night, hinting at a mass that left Cutter cold.
    'Ah,' a voice said from the shadows to his left, 'the Daru lad. Blind has found you, good. Now, where is your companion?'
    Cutter slowly sheathed his weapons. 'That damned Hound gave me a start,' he muttered. 'And if it's blind, why is it looking straight at me?'
    'Well, her name is something of a misnomer. She sees, but not as we see.' A cloaked figure stepped into the firelight. 'Do you know me?'
    'Cotillion,' Cutter replied. 'Shadowthrone is much shorter.'
    'Not that much, though perhaps in his affectations he exaggerates certain traits.'
    'What do you want?'
    'I would speak with Apsalar, of course. There is the smell of death here ... recent, that is—'
    'Rellock. Her father. In his sleep.'
    'Unfortunate.' The god's hooded head turned, as if scanning the vicinity, then swung back to face Cutter. 'Am I your patron now?' he asked.
    He wanted to answer no. He wanted to back away, to flee the question and all his answer would signify. He wanted to unleash vitriol at the suggestion. 'I believe you might be at that, Cotillion.'
    'I am ... pleased, Crokus.'
    'I am now named Cutter.'
    'Far less subtle, but apt enough, I suppose. Even so, there was the hint of deadly charm in your old Daru name. Are you sure you will not reconsider?'
    Cutter shrugged, then said, 'Crokus had no ... patron god.'
    'Of course. And one day, a man will arrive in Darujhistan. With a Malazan name, and no-one will know him, except perhaps by reputation. And he will eventually hear tales of the young Crokus, a lad so instrumental in saving the city on the night of the Fete, all those years ago. Innocent, unsullied Crokus. So be it... Cutter. I see you have a boat.'
    The change of subject startled him slightly, then he nodded. 'We have.'
    'Sufficiently provisioned?'
    'More or less. Not for a long voyage, though.'
    'No, of course not. Why should it be? May I see your knives?'
    Cutter unsheathed them and passed them across to the god, pommels forward.
    'Decent blades,' Cotillion murmured. 'Well balanced. Within them are the echoes of your skill, the taste
of blood. Shall I bless them for you, Cutter?'
    'If the blessing is without magic,' the Daru replied.
    'You desire no sorcerous investment?'
    'No.'
    'Ah. You would follow Rallick Nom's path.'
    Cutter's eyes narrowed. Oh, yes, he would recall him. When he saw through Sony's eyes, at the Phoenix Inn, perhaps. Or maybe Rallick acknowledged his patron . . . though I find that difficult to believe. 'I think I