Alex Cross's Trial

ashamed for not having written sooner. The girls have done very little else but remind me. They have pestered me about you night and day. But I’ve been busy doing almost all the housekeeping, because Mazie had to go up to Trenton on account of her sister has been “ill.”

    Do not worry about me. Other than sore muscles from wringing out the wash and from scrubbing the floors in the house, I am in good physical shape.

    These opening lines filled me with joy. My wife was still my wife. My fears were unjustified. The letter sounded so much like her—the teasing complaints, the emphatic descriptions, even the hint that she regarded Mazie’s sister’s problem as nothing more than a love of the grape.

    Later on, when I reflected on this moment, I wished I had stopped reading at that point.

    Ben, I might as well get to the point. I have suffered and wept many nights over this. Finally I have reached my decision. There is no reason for me to delay the pain for both of us, and pain there will surely be when I tell you what is in my heart.

    I think it would be best for all involved if I move back in with my father.

    I read that last sentence again… and again…

    I doubt this will truly come as a surprise to you. You know that we have not been in love, as husband and wife must be, for some time now.

    My hand was shaking now. The paper began to rattle and my eyes burned.

    I rested my head back against my chair. “ I’m still in love, Meg,” I said out loud.

    I have prayed much about this matter, and have spoken to my father about the situation.

    I should have known. Meg had consulted the one god in her life, the almighty Colonel Wilfred A. Haverbrook, U.S. Army, Ret. No doubt the colonel had agreed with her that her husband was a miserable failure.

    I know that my decision may strike you as a terrible mistake on my part. Yet I believe it is the only correct solution to our dilemma. We must be honest with each other and ourselves.

    I think it best if you do not come home at this time. I will be in touch with you by post or wire, as I begin the steps necessary to bring about a most painful but inevitable result.

    Cordially, your wife

    Meg

    I have often heard the expression “It hit him like a punch in the stomach,” but I had never felt it myself. Suddenly I knew exactly what it meant. The letter struck me a blow that caused a physical ache so sharp I had to bend over. Then I sat up. Perhaps I’d missed a word, or an entire sentence, and reversed the meaning of the thing.

    I grabbed the letter and read it again.I read it out loud.

    Eventually I turned it over and found another message scrawled on the back in pencil, a child’s handwriting.

    Daddy, me and Alice miss you terrible, just terrible. Pleas come home soon as you can. I love you, your dauhgter, Amelia.

    And that is when I felt my heart break.

    Chapter 45

    I POURED COLD WATER from the pitcher into the basin, then washed my face with the coarse brown soap, scrubbing so hard I threatened to take the skin off.

    Next I took a sheet of writing paper from my valise, along with a pen Meg had given me for the first anniversary of our marriage: a beautiful Waterman pen.

    I pulled the wobbly chair up to the wobbly table and uncapped the pen. Immediately I felt all my lawyerly eloquence disappear.

    Dear Meg,

    As your husband, and your friend, I must tell you that you have some things wrong. I do love you. You are simply wrong to say that I don’t. A separation like this is a rash thing to do, especially considering that we have never even discussed these problems face to face.

    I don’t care about your father’s opinion of our marriage. But I do care that our parting will break the hearts of everyone involved—Alice, Amelia, my own heart, even yours.

    Before you take any further action, please, my darling Meg, we must discuss this—together, as husband and wife, as mother and father of our two little daughters, as Meg and Ben who always planned to spend our lives together.

    Suddenly I came out of my writing trance…

    “Mr. Corbett! Mr. Corbett!”

    It was Maybelle, hollering from the foot of the stairs. I quickly wrote,

    Your loving and faithful husband,

    Ben

    “Mr. Corbett!”

    I put down the pen and walked out to the landing.

    “What is it, Maybelle?” I called.

    “Mrs. Nottingham is here to see you. She’s here on the porch. She’s waiting on you, Mr. Corbett. Hurry.”

    Chapter 46

    THERE ELIZABETH WAS, standing on Maybelle’s wide wraparound