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Arthur & George

Arthur & George

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Autoren: Julian Barnes
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horse to six, and begins riding to hounds. Because Jean is musical, Arthur decides to learn the banjo, a decision Touie greets with her normal indulgence. Arthur now plays the Bombardon tuba and the banjo, though neither instrument is famed for its ability to accompany a classically trained mezzo-soprano voice. Sometimes he and Jean arrange to read the same book while they are apart – Stevenson, Scott’s poems, Meredith; each likes to imagine the other on the same page, sentence, phrase, word, syllable.
    Touie’s preferred reading is
The Imitation of Christ
. She has her faith, her children, her comfort, her quiet occupations. Arthur’s guilt ensures that he behaves towards her with the utmost consideration and gentleness. Even when her saintly optimism seems to border on a monstrous complacency, and he feels a rage gathering within him, he knows he cannot inflict it upon her. To his shame, he inflicts it upon his children, upon servants, caddies, employees of the railway and idiot journalists. He remains utterly dutiful towards Touie, utterly in love with Jean; yet in other parts of his life he becomes harder and more irritable.
Patientia vincit
reads the admonition in stained glass. Yet he feels he is growing a stony carapace. His natural expression is turning into a prosecutor’s stare. He looks through others accusingly, because he is so used to looking through himself.
    He begins to think of himself geometrically, as being located at the centre of a triangle. Its points are the three women of his life, its sides the iron bars of duty. Naturally, he has placed Jean at the apex, with Touie and the Mam at the base. But sometimes the triangle seems to rotate around him, and then his head spins.
    Jean never offers the slightest complaint or reproach. She tells him that she cannot, will not, ever love another person; that waiting for him is not a trial but a joy; that she is entirely happy; that their hours together are the central truth of her life.
    ‘My darling,’ he says, ‘do you think there was ever such a love story as ours since the world began?’
    Jean feels her eyes fill with tears. At the same time, she is a little shocked. ‘Arthur dearest, it is not a sporting competition.’
    He accepts the rebuke. ‘Even so, how many people have had their love tested as we have? I should think our case was about unique.’
    ‘Does not every couple think their case unique?’
    ‘It is a common delusion. Whereas with us –’
    ‘Arthur!’ Jean does not think boastfulness appropriate to love; she is inclined to find it vulgar.
    ‘Even so,’ he persists, ‘even so I feel sometimes – no often – that there is a Guardian Spirit watching over us.’
    ‘So do I,’ Jean agrees.
    Arthur does not find the notion of a Guardian Spirit fanciful, or even a banality. He finds it plausible and real.
    Nevertheless, he needs an earthly witness to their love. He needs to offer proof. He takes to forwarding Jean’s love letters to the Mam. He does not ask permission, or regard this as breaching a confidence. He needs it to be known that their feelings for one another are still as fresh as ever, and their trials not in vain. He tells the Mam to destroy the letters, and suggests a choice of method. She may either burn them, or – preferably – tear them into tiny pieces and scatter them among the flowers at Masongill Cottage.
    Flowers. Each year, without fail, on the 15th of March, Jean receives a single snowdrop with a note from her beloved Arthur. A white flower once a year for Jean, and white lies all the year round for his wife.
    And all the time, Arthur’s fame increases. He is a clubman, a diner-out, a public figure. He becomes an authority on worlds beyond literature and medicine. He stands for Parliament as a Liberal Unionist in Edinburgh Central, where defeat is tempered by the recognition that much of politics is a mudbath. His views are canvassed, his support counted on. He is popular. He becomes more popular when he reluctantly submits to the joint will of the Mam and the British reading public: he resuscitates Sherlock Holmes and despatches him in the footprints of an enormous hound.
    When the South African War breaks out, Arthur volunteers as a medical officer. The Mam does everything to dissuade him: she thinks his large frame a sure target for the Boer bullet; further, she judges the war nothing but a dishonourable scramble for gold. Arthur disagrees. It is his duty to go; he is acknowledged to

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