Ashen Winter (Ashfall)

opportunity to escape at the other side of the camp. The only problem: How would we cross the fence?
    A bolt cutter would be the obvious solution, but none of us had any idea where we’d get one of those. Ben’s other idea was to build a canvas sling about twenty feet long and two feet wide. The middle would be reinforced with a dozen layers of canvas. We’d toss it over the fence so that the reinforced part overlaid the razor wire. Then we’d tie both sides to the chain-link part of the fence and climb over via hand- and footholds sewn into the sling.
    So we needed to dismantle a tent—one of the old types made of heavy-duty canvas. Dad was asleep so I went looking for Mom. I found her crouched in a tent feeding an older woman who was too sick to stand in the food line.
    “You need any help?” I asked.
    “Sure.” She handed me a bowl of boiled wheat. “See if Jane wants to eat anything.” She gestured at the other woman in the tent.
    I took the bowl from her and crouched, shuffling deeper into the tent. “You think you can eat?” I said to Jane.
    “Reckon’ so,” she replied in a low, rough voice. She started trying to push herself upright.
    “Let me help you.” I put my hand behind her shoulders and lifted, jamming the bedding in behind her to keep her partly upright. I took a spoonful of gruel and held it to her lips.
    “Mom,” I said, “I need a tent.”
    “Your father snoring or something?” she replied.
    “No, it’s not that. I need to . . .” How was I going to explain this? I didn’t really want to lie to her, not that she’d believe me, anyway. “I need to make something out of one of the tents, a heavy canvas one.”
    “Make what?”
    “A sling. To throw across the fence.”
    Mom swiveled toward me, slopping some of the gruel across the cheek of her patient. “You just got here! We’re finally back together, and you—”
    “So come with me,” I said. “That’s why Darla and I came back to Iowa in the first place. To find you and bring you home to Uncle Paul’s. To Rebecca.”
    “We’ll try to escape as soon as we know the girls here are safe, and we’ll go back to Uncle Paul’s together. Not gallivanting off after some—”
    “Without Darla, I wouldn’t be here. Wouldn’t be alive. I’m going after her. With or without you.”
    “You’re too young to—”
    “I’m not a kid.”
    “It’s hopeless—”
    “It is not hopeless. I need a heavy canvas tent. And I’d like your help.”
    “There are some things we just can’t do.”
    “We decide what we can do. That’s the way it was before the volcano, and it’s still true.” I fought to keep my hand steady as I continued spooning gruel into Jane’s mouth. “Things are just a lot harder.”
    “Things are different. We have to make hard choices now.”
    “Which is exactly what I’m asking you to do. Make a hard choice. Help me go after Darla.”
    “I . . . I can’t.”
    “You done?” I asked Jane.
    She nodded.
    “Me, too.” I left the tent without looking back.

Chapter 66
    I napped uneasily the rest of the day. Every time I woke up, I looked to where Dad slept alongside me, thinking about waking him and asking him to help me get a tent. Every time I waited, figuring I’d be better off if I asked him after he woke up on his own. I hoped he’d be more likely to say yes.
    But when I got up for dinner, he was gone. I looked for him all evening but didn’t catch up to him until well after dark.
    His answer was the same as my mother’s. Maybe she’d gotten to him first. They didn’t have any canvas tents to spare, didn’t want to try to escape yet, and weren’t going to go looking for Darla even if or when they did escape. We argued for what felt like at least an hour, but our positions were calcified. Any pair of statues facing off in a public park might have made more progress than we did.
    Our argument ended suddenly when a distant scream pierced the air. No sooner had we started running toward it than two more screams, in different places, shattered the stillness of the night.
    We glanced at each other. “Go wake up the day shift!” Dad ordered.
    “Right.” I reversed course, sprinting for the tents where the prefects slept. By the time I got back with reinforcements, the whole camp was in an uproar. A flood of refugees was pouring into the center of the camp, fleeing the crescendoing screams and chaos. Dad was yelling to be heard over the noise, dispatching teams of prefects to