Black Dagger Brotherhood 11 - Lover at Last

and trying to grab onto the steel plating.
    And still those trees were even closer.
    His first thought as he stared death in the face was that he was never going to meet his daughter. At least not on this side of the Fade.
    His second and final was that he couldn’t believe he’d never told Blay he loved him. In all the minutes and hours and nights of his life, in all the words he’d spoken to the male over the years they’d known each other, he’d only ever pushed him away.
    And now it was too late.
    Dumb-ass. What a fucking dumb-ass he was.
    ’Cuz it sure as hell appeared that his library card was getting stamped tonight.
    Straightening up so the full force of that cold blast hit him square in the face, Qhuinn glared into the rush, picturing those pines ahead that he couldn’t see because his eyes were watering from the wind. Opening his mouth, he screamed bloody murder, adding his voice to the maelstrom.
    Goddamn it, he wasn’t going down like a pussy. No ducking, no pathetic oh-please-God-no-saaaaaave-me. Fuck that. He was going to meet death with his fangs bared and his body braced and his heart pounding not from fear, but from a whole boatload of…
    “Blow me, Grim Reaper!”

    As Qhuinn was trying to get airborne, Blay had his gun muzzle pointed into the tree line and was pumping off rounds like he had an endless supply of lead—which he didn’t.
    This was a total goat fuck. He and John and Rhage were withoutany cover; there was no way of knowing how many slayers were in those woods; and for the love of God, all that ancient airplane was doing was leaving a toxic cloud of smoke in its wake as it rattled off like it was on a Sunday stroll.
    Oh, and that POS was far from fucking bulletproof, but evidently had gas in its tank.
    Qhuinn and Z were not going to make it. They were going to slam into that forest at the end of the field—assuming they didn’t get blown up first.
    In that moment, when he knew that one way or another a fireball was imminent, he split in half. The physical part of him remained plugged into fending off the attack, his arms sticking straight out, his forefingers squeezing out bullets, his eyes and ears tracking the sounds and sights of muzzle flashes and the movements of his enemy.
    The other part of him was in that airplane.
    It was as if he were watching his own death. He could imagine so very clearly the violent vibrating of the plane, and the out-of-control bumps over the ground, and the sight of that solid line of trees coming at him—sure as if he were staring out of Qhuinn’s eyes and not his own.
    That foolhardy son of a
bitch
.
    There had been so many times when Blay had thought, He’s going to kill himself.
    So many times on and off the field.
    But now this was the one that was going to stick—
    The bullet struck him in the thigh, and the pain that raced from his leg to his heart suggested that his full attention needed to shift back to the fight: If he wanted to live, he had to completely focus.
    Yet even as the conviction hit him, there was a split second when he thought, Just end this all now. Just be done with all the bullshit and the punishment of life, the almost-theres, the if-onlys, the relentless chronic agony he’d been in…he was so tired of it all—
    He had no idea what made him hit the snow.
    One moment he was staring toward the plane waiting for the burst of flames. The next he was chest-down on the ground, his elbows digging into the frozen, intractable earth, his injured leg throbbing.
    Pop! Pop! Pop—
    The roar that interrupted the sound of bullets was so loud he ducked his head, like that would help him avoid the chronic airplane’s fireball.
    Except there was no light and no heat. And the sound was overhead….
    Soaring. That bucket of bolts was actually in the air. Above them.
    Blay spared a second to look up, just in case he’d gotten shot in the head and his perception of reality was fucked. But no—that piece-of-shit crop duster was up in the sky, making a fat turn and taking off in the direction that, if it could stay aloft, would eventually lead Qhuinn and Z to the Brotherhood’s compound.
    If they were lucky.
    Man, that flight path wasn’t pretty—it was not an eagle going straight and true through the night sky. More like a barn swallow fresh out of the nest—with a broken wing.
    Back and forth. Back and forth, tipping from side to side.
    To the point where it looked more like they had pulled off the impossible and gotten in