Brother Cadfael 07: The Sanctuary Sparrow

cannot, that I will not. Good God, what harm has she ever done us, a poor soul even less happy than we?'
    'You need not,' said Susanna simply. 'I can! There is nothing now I cannot do to have you mine, to belong to you, to go by your side through this world. After what I've done already, what is there I dare not do?'
    'No, not this! Not this offence, not if you love me. The other was forced on you, what loss was he, as mean as your kin! But not this child! I will not let you! Nor's there no need,' he said, turning from ordering to persuading. 'Here are we, well out of the town, leave her here and go, you and I together, what else matters here? Let her make her way back by daylight. Where shall we be? Far past pursuit, over the border into Welsh land, safe. What harm can she do us, who has never done any yet, nor ever willed any?'
    'They will pursue! If ever my father gets to know ... You know him! He would not stir a step for me, but for this - this ...' She spurned with her foot the bundle she had brought with her, and it rang faintly in the dark. 'There could be barriers on the way into Wales, accidents, delays ... Far better be sure.'
    'No, no, no! You shall not so despoil my love, I will not have you so changed. I want you as you are now ...'
    The horses shifted and blew, uneasy at having disturbing company at this hour, yet wakeful and ready. Then there was a silence, brief and fathoms deep, and ending in a long-drawn sigh.
    'My heart, my love,' Susanna said in a melting whisper, 'as you will, as you order ... Have it your way, then ... Yes, let her be! What if we are hunted? There's nothing I can refuse you - not my life ...'
    And whatever it had been between them, and concerning her, it was over. Rannilt stood helpless in the corner of the stable, trying to understand, willing them away, westward into Wales, where Iestyn was a man and a kinsman instead of a menial, and Susanna might be an honourable wife, who had been hitherto a household servant, balked of her rights, grudged her dowry, a discard woman.
    Iestyn plucked up the clothing roll, and by the stirring and trampling of one of the horses, he was busy strapping it into balance behind the saddle. The other bundle, the heavy one, gave forth again its soft, metallic sound as Susanna hoisted it, to be stowed behind the second mount. They were still barely visible, those horses. An occasional splinter of light glanced from their coats and was lost again; their warmth breathed on the air with every movement.
    A hand swung wide the half of the double door, and a sector of sky peered in, lighter than the darkness, bluer than the blackness, growing luminous with the rising of a half-moon. One of the horses stirred into motion, led towards that paler interstice.
    There was a short, sharp cry, so soft and desolate that the air ached with it. The opened half-door slammed to again, and Rannilt heard hasty hands fumbling with heavy bars, hoisting and dropping them into solid sockets. Two such beams guarding the door had the force and assurance of a fortress.
    'What is it?' Susanna's voice pealed sharply out of the dusk within. She was holding the bridle, the abrupt halt made the horse stamp and snort.
    'Men, a good number, coming down from the headland! There are horses, led behind! They're coming here - they know!'
    'They cannot know!' she cried.
    'They do know. They're spreading, to ring us round, I saw the ranks part. Get up the ladder! Take her with you. She may be worth all to us yet. What else,' he cried, suddenly raging, 'have we between ourselves and the judgment?'
    Rannilt, bewildered and frightened, stood trembling in the darkness, stunned by the confusing turmoil of hooves stamping round her, and bodies in violent, blind motion, warm stable smells eddying on the air and pricking her nostrils as the stirrings of terror prickled her skin. The doors were barred, and Iestyn between her and that way out, even if she could have lifted the beams. And still she could not believe, could not take in what was happening to her, or relate these two desperate people with the Susanna and the Iestyn she had known. When a hand gripped her wrist and tugged her towards the rear corner of the stable, she went helplessly with the urgent compulsion. What else could she do? Her ankle struck against the lowest rung of a ladder, the hand dragged her upwards. Fumbling and panting, she went where she was hauled, and was tossed face-down into a pile of hay that enveloped her in dust