Clockwork Princess

ago.”
    “But I have done what you asked,” she’d said desperately. “There is no need for this, not for me—”
    “It is not for you,” he’d said, flicking his gaze away from her. “The automatons had to be tested before they were sent into battle. That is simple science. They have intelligence now. Strategy. Nothing can stand before them.”
    “They will turn on you, then.”
    “They will not. Their lives are linked to mine. If I die, so are they destroyed. They must protect me to endure.” His look had been cold and faraway. “Enough. I brought you here to show you that I am what I am, and you will accept it. Your clockwork angel protects your life, but the lives of other innocents are in my hands—in
your
hands. Do not test me, and there will not be a second such village. I wish to hear no more tiresome protests.”
    Your clockwork angel protects your life
. She put her hand on it now, feeling the familiar ticking beneath her fingers. She closed her eyes, but terrible images lived behind her eyelids. She saw in her mind the Nephilim driven before the automatons as the villagers had been, Jem torn apart by clockwork monsters, Will stabbed through with metal blades, Henry and Charlotte burning …
    Her hand tightened savagely around the angel, and she tore it from her throat, casting it to the uneven rock floor just as a log fell in the fire, sending up a spitting column of red sparks. In their illumination she saw the palm of her left hand, saw the faint scar of the burn she had given herself the day she had told Will she was engaged to Jem.
    As it had then, her hand went to the fireplace poker. She lifted it, feeling its weight in her hand. The fire had climbed higher. She saw the world through a golden haze as she raised the poker and brought it down on the clockwork angel.
    Iron though the poker was, it burst into metallic powder, a cloud of shining filaments that sifted to the floor, dusting the surface of the clockwork angel, which lay, untouched and undamaged, on the ground before her knees.
    And then the angel began to shift and change. Its wings trembled, and its closed eyelids opened on bits of whitish quartz. From them poured thin beams of whitish light. Like in paintings of the star over Bethlehem, the light rose and rose, radiating spikes of light. Slowly it began to coalesce into a shape—the form of an angel.
    It was a shimmering blur of light so bright, it was difficult to look at directly. Tessa could see, through the light, the faint outline of something like a man. She could see eyes that were without iris or pupil—inset bits of crystal that gleamed in the firelight. The angel’s wings were broad, spreading out from its shoulders, each feather tipped with gleaming metal. Its hands were folded over the hilt of a graceful sword.
    Its blank shining eyes rested on her.
Why do you try to destroy me?
Its voice was sweet, echoing in her mind like music.
I protect you
.
    She thought of Jem suddenly, propped on his bed of pillows, his face pale and gleaming.
There is more to life than living
. “It is not you I seek to destroy, but myself.”
    But why would you do that? Life is a gift
.
    “I seek to do right,” she said. “In keeping me alive you are allowing great evil to exist.”
    Evil
. The musical voice was thoughtful.
I have been so long in my clockwork prison that I have forgotten good and evil
.
    “Clockwork prison?” Tessa whispered. “But how can an angel be prisoned?”
    It was John Thaddeus Shade who imprisoned me. He caught my soul inside a spell and trapped it within this mechanical body
.
    “Like the Pyxis,” Tessa said. “Only entrapping an angel instead of a demon.”
    I am an angel of the divine
, said the angel, hovering before her.
I am brother to the Sijil, Kurabi, and the Zurah, the Fravashis and Dakinis
.
    “And—is this your true form? Is this what you look like?”
    You see here only a fraction of what I am. In my true form I am deadly glory. Mine was the freedom of Heaven, before I was trapped and bound to you
.
    “I am sorry,” she whispered.
    You are not the one to blame. You did not imprison me. Our spirits are bound, it is true, but even as I protected you in the womb, I knew you were blameless
.
    “My guardian angel.”
    Few can claim a single angel who guards them. But you can
.
    “I don’t want to claim you,” Tessa said. “I want to die on my own terms, not be forced to live on Mortmain’s.”
    I cannot let you die
. The angel’s